When I look back over this past year I realize that I have been really blessed. No, I haven't been able to get a steady job. I have however worked really hard helping out with my parents. I am blessed to have them still in my life. I do treasure the time I have with them, even though some days I just wish to be alone.
I'm also grateful to have a home. So many have lost everything this year through floods, fire and hurricanes. Yes, I do know that the pressure to confirm to global standards is increasing. I do see the push to get rid of cash. Cards are very convenient, but also a very good way to track your purchases. Some people are saying that it won't be long before the globalists take over.
I tend to believe that President Trump is in office for a very good reason. He is there to slow down the progression to the world government. It can't really be stopped. There are forces that are too bent to have it happen sooner rather than later. You remember what I said last year? I believed then that Trump's election allowed us time to reflect and recover.
Some might say that he hasn't handled things well. I've seen the results. I may still not have a steady job but like the fact that he is pressing forward to reform.
I do however see a looming crisis in my hometown. It hurts to think about the destruction. There are still so many questions that I need answered here. I'm a little nervous as this situation is something I've never encountered before now. I have to ask myself the following questions:
Am I willing to do what I can to save these buildings from destruction?
What consequences will happen should it be revealed that "kickbacks" were taken to sell off and claim eminent domain on private property?
What benefits will anyone receive from this wanton destruction of both private and public property? I know that I will have a fight ahead of me. Yet I also know if I didn't say anything or raised any objections...then I wouldn't be doing my job. It is funny that I just kind of fell into this role. It is also a little bit scary.
I do keep asking to find out if anyone really cares. They complain about stuff after it happens...but the fact is that we should be really concerned. This is very different from having a private building being threatened with demolition. This is a borough handing over the keys to the town and allowing them to literally wreck the town center...:-( Some people have raised some good questions about this. I am going to write a letter with a series of questions. My hope is that the borough answers them honestly and thoroughly.
The thought of having a Super WAWA in the town center is making me physically ill. I pray that I don't get obsessed with it.
Tuesday, December 26, 2017
Thursday, December 14, 2017
Death and Taxes: What it all means
I've been thinking too much about this subject. It is very hard to understand why everything keeps happening. This time of the year is supposed to light and joyful. Everyone is supposed to be happy. Yet no one is. There has to be a reason why. I think it's because every Christmas or holiday book I've read has a death scene in it. I must have read 10 or more this season so far. That makes ten books with a death theme. It does make me wonder until I realize the true meaning of the season.
You see God knew from the beginning of time that we were dead. He knew that only he would be able to make us alive. He created us. He came in the form of a helpless baby over 2,000 years ago. He came to be our sacrifice. He was born to die.
The debate about the tax reform bill has me thinking about the role taxes play in society. It was because of taxes that Joseph and Mary had to travel to Bethlehem. Caesar wanted to squeeze more money and have more control over his populace. I can't help that that some of the ones objecting to this tax reform see it as a loss of control. Maybe it is. When you take away the incentive to tax, you free citizens to make up their own minds.
I wonder if the monkey wrench in the system will continue to hold fast. I wonder how many feel vindicated by the win on Tuesday. I wonder when the restrictions will take place.Will it kill whatever incentive people have to live? Will we be forced to accept invisible money? I have to admit that it is convenient to have electronic payment. Yet I still want to stick with physical currency. I like the feel and texture of the paper. I like feeling the cool silver coins in my hands. I like the control that physical money gives me. I won't give that up easily.
I hate the fact that I feel like I'm being more and more disenfranchised by everything that is going on. I miss quiet times when I walked without a care in the world. Sometimes I do long to be with God in heavenly places. I know my place is here.
You see God knew from the beginning of time that we were dead. He knew that only he would be able to make us alive. He created us. He came in the form of a helpless baby over 2,000 years ago. He came to be our sacrifice. He was born to die.
The debate about the tax reform bill has me thinking about the role taxes play in society. It was because of taxes that Joseph and Mary had to travel to Bethlehem. Caesar wanted to squeeze more money and have more control over his populace. I can't help that that some of the ones objecting to this tax reform see it as a loss of control. Maybe it is. When you take away the incentive to tax, you free citizens to make up their own minds.
I wonder if the monkey wrench in the system will continue to hold fast. I wonder how many feel vindicated by the win on Tuesday. I wonder when the restrictions will take place.Will it kill whatever incentive people have to live? Will we be forced to accept invisible money? I have to admit that it is convenient to have electronic payment. Yet I still want to stick with physical currency. I like the feel and texture of the paper. I like feeling the cool silver coins in my hands. I like the control that physical money gives me. I won't give that up easily.
I hate the fact that I feel like I'm being more and more disenfranchised by everything that is going on. I miss quiet times when I walked without a care in the world. Sometimes I do long to be with God in heavenly places. I know my place is here.
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
Growing Fears and Putting it all in Perspective
I took last week off to reflect and regenerate. It was Thanksgiving week, so my thought processes mainly went in the direction of being thankful. I do have a lot to be thankful for this year. I still have a home. I am in reasonably good health. I have a family that still supports me. I have enough food to eat.
The growing fears of being homeless are still there. I haven't had sustainable employment for almost six years. I also fear being alone. I have my family around me now, but they are getting older and more frail. There is also the fear that being unable to handle the fact that time is speeding up for me. I can't seem to grasp all the new technology. It seems so invasive and cruel. Machines have no soul. They can't think like human beings.
When I start to think and put things in perspective, I realize that the Lord has my back. He knows my every need. He even knows what I need before I need it. I just need to accept what he has for me. It's not easy. The fear of homelessness is still there. I can't deny it. I also can't deny that sometimes I feel so alone. I wonder if anyone even cares. I worry about my parents and grow weary with the pressure that they unconsciously put on me. They don't understand that the job market isn't what it used to be. There is just too much competition for employment.
I realize too that in some significant ways that people like me are being ostracized because they refuse to expose their personal information online. I have compromised a bit but there are some things I just refuse to expose. It did cost me. The younger generations are so used to putting it all out there that they just don't think twice about it. Sometimes I do wish I could be so free. I can't.
It's not just me. I see many people around me that distrust putting personal information online. The security leaks are enough to turn anyone's stomach. The manipulation of data is way too easy now. I do try to put it in perspective. I want to trust these organizations, but I can't. I've already been burned a few times with my very personal and private information. I also see the damage that this manipulation has done to others. My growing fears are that I will be sucked in the electronic vortex and lost forever....
The growing fears of being homeless are still there. I haven't had sustainable employment for almost six years. I also fear being alone. I have my family around me now, but they are getting older and more frail. There is also the fear that being unable to handle the fact that time is speeding up for me. I can't seem to grasp all the new technology. It seems so invasive and cruel. Machines have no soul. They can't think like human beings.
When I start to think and put things in perspective, I realize that the Lord has my back. He knows my every need. He even knows what I need before I need it. I just need to accept what he has for me. It's not easy. The fear of homelessness is still there. I can't deny it. I also can't deny that sometimes I feel so alone. I wonder if anyone even cares. I worry about my parents and grow weary with the pressure that they unconsciously put on me. They don't understand that the job market isn't what it used to be. There is just too much competition for employment.
I realize too that in some significant ways that people like me are being ostracized because they refuse to expose their personal information online. I have compromised a bit but there are some things I just refuse to expose. It did cost me. The younger generations are so used to putting it all out there that they just don't think twice about it. Sometimes I do wish I could be so free. I can't.
It's not just me. I see many people around me that distrust putting personal information online. The security leaks are enough to turn anyone's stomach. The manipulation of data is way too easy now. I do try to put it in perspective. I want to trust these organizations, but I can't. I've already been burned a few times with my very personal and private information. I also see the damage that this manipulation has done to others. My growing fears are that I will be sucked in the electronic vortex and lost forever....
Tuesday, November 14, 2017
Autumn Reflections and Dreams
I've been really busy lately. Two projects are pressing down on me. One of the projects is for Darby while the other one is for Collingdale. When I think about these projects and the ramifications that could affect the area for generations, i is sometimes overwhelming. I am looking for direction and a miracle. I need financial and moral support.
Five buildings are threatened with demolition. Two of the buildings are relatively new. The other three are almost 100 years old. The issue is that the developer is pushing through the demolition because they feel that there is no revenue to keep the buildings. In other words there is no incentive for them to keep the buildings. There is also too much expense to keep those buildings.
My dream of having a building that showcases the community's history. It would be great to see those buildings used as a community center. It would be wonderful to see the revitalization of this area. My dream of having a building that reflects the family values of the community would be nice.
Five buildings are threatened with demolition. Two of the buildings are relatively new. The other three are almost 100 years old. The issue is that the developer is pushing through the demolition because they feel that there is no revenue to keep the buildings. In other words there is no incentive for them to keep the buildings. There is also too much expense to keep those buildings.
My dream of having a building that showcases the community's history. It would be great to see those buildings used as a community center. It would be wonderful to see the revitalization of this area. My dream of having a building that reflects the family values of the community would be nice.
Tuesday, October 31, 2017
Falling Forward and Facing Backward: The Transition From Autumn To Winter
It doesn't seem that long ago that I was sweating. This year has been a very warm one. It didn't really snow that much. It never really got cold. It did however get very hot and humid. Saturday night we will once again make the transition from Daylight Savings Time to Standard Time. This signals to me that we are also transitioning from Autumn to Winter.
The days will now get even shorter. It will be cold. At least that's the hope of some. I'm not a fan of hot, humid weather. Frankly hot, humid weather increases the chance of severe weather. We had a few times when we held our breath when a hurricane formed in the Atlantic. Hearing about the devastation in Texas, Louisiana and Florida was enough to twist my stomach and set my heart aching. Some days I admittedly just felt numb. I didn't know how to handle it. I prayed and God answered. My friends were spared. Some will have to pick up the pieces of their lives but they have the resources they need.
Reflecting on the time change....I always get confused. Is it Fall Back and Spring Forward or Fall Forward and Spring Back? Lately I felt that I have been falling forward towards a future I never would have dreamed of when I was younger. The fact that there is a growing interest in historical preservation is amazing. I sometimes feel like I'm facing backward because the changes are happening too rapidly for me to process. The transition is scary. What will happen tomorrow? Will I still have this platform? Only the Lord knows....
The days will now get even shorter. It will be cold. At least that's the hope of some. I'm not a fan of hot, humid weather. Frankly hot, humid weather increases the chance of severe weather. We had a few times when we held our breath when a hurricane formed in the Atlantic. Hearing about the devastation in Texas, Louisiana and Florida was enough to twist my stomach and set my heart aching. Some days I admittedly just felt numb. I didn't know how to handle it. I prayed and God answered. My friends were spared. Some will have to pick up the pieces of their lives but they have the resources they need.
Reflecting on the time change....I always get confused. Is it Fall Back and Spring Forward or Fall Forward and Spring Back? Lately I felt that I have been falling forward towards a future I never would have dreamed of when I was younger. The fact that there is a growing interest in historical preservation is amazing. I sometimes feel like I'm facing backward because the changes are happening too rapidly for me to process. The transition is scary. What will happen tomorrow? Will I still have this platform? Only the Lord knows....
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
There is a New Day Coming
After everything that has happened over the past two months it is hard to put things in perspective. Yet I know I must. I do have a lot to be thankful for at this time. I can be thankful for my family and friends. I can be encouraged that this night won't last forever...even though it seems like it. I can praise God that he has spared my Aunt Jeanette and Uncle Gary from the fires raging in Santa Rosa, CA. I can praise God that he has allowed me to continue to post these writings freely.
There is a new day coming. It will be like no other day. We will have to go through some tough trials before we see that new day. For some it will be a day of disaster and eternal hell. The signs are there for anyone to read. We need not be afraid to tell others the Good News. He is coming.
Every day I see the signs. I wonder if this will be the day of his return. Some days admittedly I fear that I will be found unworthy to be counted as his child. I struggle with the concept of holiness. I know that I can't be holy. I need God's help to be holy in his eyes. I want to be ready for that new day when God will make all things new.
When the pressure of life gets me down I focus on that new day. I imagine the streets of gold and the beautiful jewels. I realize that the pearls on the gates fit because pearls are the result of pressure. Lord, help me bend to your will and not my own. It is too easy to be stubborn and set in my ways. I want to go your way and trust you under the pressure of life. Thank you for molding me to your image.
There is a new day coming. It will be like no other day. We will have to go through some tough trials before we see that new day. For some it will be a day of disaster and eternal hell. The signs are there for anyone to read. We need not be afraid to tell others the Good News. He is coming.
Every day I see the signs. I wonder if this will be the day of his return. Some days admittedly I fear that I will be found unworthy to be counted as his child. I struggle with the concept of holiness. I know that I can't be holy. I need God's help to be holy in his eyes. I want to be ready for that new day when God will make all things new.
When the pressure of life gets me down I focus on that new day. I imagine the streets of gold and the beautiful jewels. I realize that the pearls on the gates fit because pearls are the result of pressure. Lord, help me bend to your will and not my own. It is too easy to be stubborn and set in my ways. I want to go your way and trust you under the pressure of life. Thank you for molding me to your image.
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
Unintended Circumstances and Weighty Matters
You may be thinking to yourself about the meaning of the unintended circumstances. With everything that has been going on lately it can be overwhelming to even think about what could happen. You know that there have been strong forces trying mightily to "blow" you off course. You may be thinking to yourself that you never expected to be dealing with so much. It has been too much to handle at one time. Those unintended circumstances loom in front of you.
I know that I've probably seem to be talking nonsense to some. It is those weighty matters that concern me. Everything that has gone on has got me thinking about freedom and what it means. Technology has slowly but surely taken some freedoms away from us. You may not think so. You may think that technology has allowed us to have more freedom. It has. We have the freedom to connect with people worldwide now. We have the freedom to express our opinions. Yet the more "freedom" technology gives us the more it takes away. I know that doesn't make any sense.
I recently visited a food store and was very frustrated. There were no prices on the product or on the shelf below. All I saw was those scan codes....so maddening....did they expect everyone to scan the codes? It scared me in a way too. With no prices and no way to pay for food via cash, that food store was promoting discrimination. They in fact were using the electronic payment system as a way to bar certain people from purchasing food.
Sweetgreens is a perfect example of this type of discrimination. They stopped accepting cash purchases at all their restaurants in 2016. Instead they only accept cards or the Sweetgreen app. Yes, I get the fact that they are trying to keep their employees safe. Yet this type of discrimination bars people nevertheless. It says that cash isn't important and the unintended circumstance is that these people aren't welcome. The implications are staggering when you really think about it.
It is way too easy now with the newer technology to bar certain people from jobs, places, food and water. The weighty matter is that by eliminating cash you are essentially forcing people to "go your way or the highway." I don't see any good coming out of this. Frankly I wouldn't be surprised if something really sinister happened.
I do have to keep reminding myself that God is in control. He is. I thank God that he is...
I know that I've probably seem to be talking nonsense to some. It is those weighty matters that concern me. Everything that has gone on has got me thinking about freedom and what it means. Technology has slowly but surely taken some freedoms away from us. You may not think so. You may think that technology has allowed us to have more freedom. It has. We have the freedom to connect with people worldwide now. We have the freedom to express our opinions. Yet the more "freedom" technology gives us the more it takes away. I know that doesn't make any sense.
I recently visited a food store and was very frustrated. There were no prices on the product or on the shelf below. All I saw was those scan codes....so maddening....did they expect everyone to scan the codes? It scared me in a way too. With no prices and no way to pay for food via cash, that food store was promoting discrimination. They in fact were using the electronic payment system as a way to bar certain people from purchasing food.
Sweetgreens is a perfect example of this type of discrimination. They stopped accepting cash purchases at all their restaurants in 2016. Instead they only accept cards or the Sweetgreen app. Yes, I get the fact that they are trying to keep their employees safe. Yet this type of discrimination bars people nevertheless. It says that cash isn't important and the unintended circumstance is that these people aren't welcome. The implications are staggering when you really think about it.
It is way too easy now with the newer technology to bar certain people from jobs, places, food and water. The weighty matter is that by eliminating cash you are essentially forcing people to "go your way or the highway." I don't see any good coming out of this. Frankly I wouldn't be surprised if something really sinister happened.
I do have to keep reminding myself that God is in control. He is. I thank God that he is...
Tuesday, September 26, 2017
Overwhelmed but Moving Forward: After effects of yet another hurricane
I'm praising God right now. He has chosen to spare our area again. Yet I still can't help thinking about the devastation that this last hurricane left behind in Puerto Rico. It is hard to wrap my mind around it. Some want to place blame on the President. It wasn't right in 2005. It's not right now. It isn't the President's fault.
I just don't think enough people realize how screwed we really are here. There has been three major hurricanes and a devastating fire (that is still going on) to contend with and provide much needed services. The overwhelming devastation in Texas, Florida and the western states is enough to drain our reserves dry. Yes, there has been overwhelming support for all the areas affected by the hurricanes. Yet I can see that support drying up as people are overwhelmed and just can't give anymore.
I do see some of the ugliness rearing its ugly head as people get more and more desperate. I am not sure how to help. I know the best thing that I can do is pray. I need to hand this over to God knowing that he is in control.
I am praying for miracles. I think about the devastation in Mexico and my heart breaks. It does seem like God has abandoned them. It is hard to think about moving forward. I am weary even though thankfully the Lord has spared us. I clamor for answers. I plant wishes in the corner of my mind. I wish I could help more. I don't know how....so I pray and talk to God.
Strengthen those who are in the front lines, Lord. Keep them safe and from harm. Provide the necessary subsistence that they need to survive. Make us grateful and not prideful knowing that we are not immune to tragedy. Thank you, Lord.
I just don't think enough people realize how screwed we really are here. There has been three major hurricanes and a devastating fire (that is still going on) to contend with and provide much needed services. The overwhelming devastation in Texas, Florida and the western states is enough to drain our reserves dry. Yes, there has been overwhelming support for all the areas affected by the hurricanes. Yet I can see that support drying up as people are overwhelmed and just can't give anymore.
I do see some of the ugliness rearing its ugly head as people get more and more desperate. I am not sure how to help. I know the best thing that I can do is pray. I need to hand this over to God knowing that he is in control.
I am praying for miracles. I think about the devastation in Mexico and my heart breaks. It does seem like God has abandoned them. It is hard to think about moving forward. I am weary even though thankfully the Lord has spared us. I clamor for answers. I plant wishes in the corner of my mind. I wish I could help more. I don't know how....so I pray and talk to God.
Strengthen those who are in the front lines, Lord. Keep them safe and from harm. Provide the necessary subsistence that they need to survive. Make us grateful and not prideful knowing that we are not immune to tragedy. Thank you, Lord.
Tuesday, September 12, 2017
Stronger Than the Storm: The After affects of Hurricane Irma
Hurricane Irma literally devastated Florida. Everyone knew it was coming but seeing the after affects is depressing. It is hard to say right now if Floridians will be stronger than the storm. Texans have proven that they are stronger than the storm after the wreckage from Hurricane Harvey. There are still two hurricanes out there in the Atlantic. Thankfully so far there is only a minimum threat from them.
I am still praying. I am realizing that the anticipation and anxiety from all the media hype didn't do the vast destruction justice. I am still trying to wrap my mind around it. I sometimes find myself going numb because my mind can't process it all. I am deeply grateful for those who were spared. It does seem so far that there was a minimum loss of life. Yet I can't help feeling that some of those people who survived probably are wishing they may have died. I know that sounds crazy. When you think about it however it is understandable. These people have lost everything. They have nothing left.
I do often wonder when I hear about all the devastation what makes people want to hold on. The voices of doubt and fear are strong. Yet I know God is in the midst of the storm. It is that sense of purpose that makes people want to hold on.
The financial crisis that I've been going through has taught me some things. I realize that people, not things matter. I understand a little bit that we need to listen and be with those who are hurting. I realize that I don't have to have money to help. There are many ways that I can help. God is stronger than the storms of my life. I can rely on him to see me through.
Will the people of Florida band together like the people of Texas? It remains to be seen. I haven't heard anything from my friends in Florida, so I continue to pray for them.
I am still praying. I am realizing that the anticipation and anxiety from all the media hype didn't do the vast destruction justice. I am still trying to wrap my mind around it. I sometimes find myself going numb because my mind can't process it all. I am deeply grateful for those who were spared. It does seem so far that there was a minimum loss of life. Yet I can't help feeling that some of those people who survived probably are wishing they may have died. I know that sounds crazy. When you think about it however it is understandable. These people have lost everything. They have nothing left.
I do often wonder when I hear about all the devastation what makes people want to hold on. The voices of doubt and fear are strong. Yet I know God is in the midst of the storm. It is that sense of purpose that makes people want to hold on.
The financial crisis that I've been going through has taught me some things. I realize that people, not things matter. I understand a little bit that we need to listen and be with those who are hurting. I realize that I don't have to have money to help. There are many ways that I can help. God is stronger than the storms of my life. I can rely on him to see me through.
Will the people of Florida band together like the people of Texas? It remains to be seen. I haven't heard anything from my friends in Florida, so I continue to pray for them.
Thursday, September 7, 2017
Apocalypse Now? Fires, Hurricanes and Floods
The eyes of the world are glued on what's unfolding in the United States this week. For many it does seem like the end of the world as we know it. Last week we were reeling from the after affects of Hurricane Harvey as it hit Texas and Louisiana. This week we're anxiously watching and praying as another tragedy unfolds in the Caribbean. The weather people are saying that this is the worst hurricane they had ever seen. Prayers are going up that it veers away from land completely missing all of the East Coast.
Then there's the wildfires raging on the West Coast in Oregon, Washington and Montana. California has been hit pretty hard too. That is not the worst of it. There are floods in Texas that have wiped out pretty much everything.
Some people are speculating that God is punishing the US for electing a president who doesn't bow to the global union. Some are even pushing for his impeachment. I'm still not sure if they will able to make that stick or what will happen. It does feel like Christians are under attack. Some of us will stand under these attacks, but others won't. It is during these times I believe that we are tested for our mettle. Do we believe God? Do we stand up even under tremendous pressure?
I can't predict what's going to happen. I just know that there is a split in this country right now. Some will say that it's against good and evil. Others will say that it is a sign that apocalypse is here now. It is kind of scary to think about how easy it could be to just discontinue paper currency and force everyone to use electronic currency. It is kind of scary to think how much control electronic currency can give. It is predicted in the Bible that one day a system of government will have that complete control over a person's life.
The mechanisms to do just that are in place now. Yet I know God is in control. He directs storms and protects his own children. We are his children. With everything that is going on, it is hard to focus on this fact. He knows us and loves us. He will bring us through.
Then there's the wildfires raging on the West Coast in Oregon, Washington and Montana. California has been hit pretty hard too. That is not the worst of it. There are floods in Texas that have wiped out pretty much everything.
Some people are speculating that God is punishing the US for electing a president who doesn't bow to the global union. Some are even pushing for his impeachment. I'm still not sure if they will able to make that stick or what will happen. It does feel like Christians are under attack. Some of us will stand under these attacks, but others won't. It is during these times I believe that we are tested for our mettle. Do we believe God? Do we stand up even under tremendous pressure?
I can't predict what's going to happen. I just know that there is a split in this country right now. Some will say that it's against good and evil. Others will say that it is a sign that apocalypse is here now. It is kind of scary to think about how easy it could be to just discontinue paper currency and force everyone to use electronic currency. It is kind of scary to think how much control electronic currency can give. It is predicted in the Bible that one day a system of government will have that complete control over a person's life.
The mechanisms to do just that are in place now. Yet I know God is in control. He directs storms and protects his own children. We are his children. With everything that is going on, it is hard to focus on this fact. He knows us and loves us. He will bring us through.
Tuesday, August 29, 2017
Overwhelmed and Saddened: The Unfolding Tragedy in Texas
I've been following the news lately as many have. I do have a personal stake in what's happening there in Texas. Two of my friends are living that nightmare. I've been in contact with one of them through Facebook. She has lived through two other natural disasters. This is different. Those natural disasters didn't have the capacity to adversely affect her. This one does.
I keep seeing the pictures and praying for everyone affected by this horrendous storm. It is still very hard to wrap my mind around the devastation. I feel overwhelmed and saddened. I know that there isn't much I can do personally for the victims. The unfolding tragedy sometimes is hard to look away from because you're praying that they all get out safely. I do pray now for my two friends.
I know that I wouldn't be able to handle it. At least I don't think I'd be able to handle it. The ugliness and fear is ever present. I wouldn't fault anyone for just shutting down over the overwhelming loss. It is very hard to comprehend that this threat is ongoing. The worst is not yet over. That is why I still hold them up in prayer. That's why I continue to follow the news as best I can.
There are some good stories here, so I'm told. These are the stories that are being buried because the media thrives on the sensationalism and fear. They want to hear the despair and anxiety, instead of the warm embrace and helping hands. I am thankful for all those who are willing to step up without regard to their own safety to save others. I am grateful for the many who donate what they can without fanfare. It is important in the midst of tragedy to have an anchor. Thank you, Lord for being that anchor.
I keep seeing the pictures and praying for everyone affected by this horrendous storm. It is still very hard to wrap my mind around the devastation. I feel overwhelmed and saddened. I know that there isn't much I can do personally for the victims. The unfolding tragedy sometimes is hard to look away from because you're praying that they all get out safely. I do pray now for my two friends.
I know that I wouldn't be able to handle it. At least I don't think I'd be able to handle it. The ugliness and fear is ever present. I wouldn't fault anyone for just shutting down over the overwhelming loss. It is very hard to comprehend that this threat is ongoing. The worst is not yet over. That is why I still hold them up in prayer. That's why I continue to follow the news as best I can.
There are some good stories here, so I'm told. These are the stories that are being buried because the media thrives on the sensationalism and fear. They want to hear the despair and anxiety, instead of the warm embrace and helping hands. I am thankful for all those who are willing to step up without regard to their own safety to save others. I am grateful for the many who donate what they can without fanfare. It is important in the midst of tragedy to have an anchor. Thank you, Lord for being that anchor.
Thursday, August 17, 2017
Ugly Eruptions in The Landscape of Time and Space
You are probably wondering right about now why I posted this title. Well if you have been following the news you know that some very ugly things have been happening lately. If you let your mind dwell on this things, you may find yourself wanting to dig a hole and dive in it.
Human nature is chaotic. You can see that so clearly when you step back and analyze it. We need God. The ugly eruptions in the landscape of time and space are because we left him. We decided to embrace the chaos instead of embracing God. We're now paying the price for that decision.
I haven't a clue what's going to happen next. Will there be another civil war? You may believe so when you realize that our rights are slowly being taken away from us. You may also believe it when you see the overriding control that technology has on life. It's very scary. As you may or may not know I'm one of those people....You know the ones. We use the Internet, but we still cling to the old ways of doing things as well.
The ugly eruptions will continue to happen. Some will say in the future that these are the growing pains of a new world order. They could be right. In Revelations Chapter 13, it does describe this new world order perfectly. We haven't as yet seen the One that will be worshiped nor have we yet seen the forerunner of that One. Yet we know he is coming.
For some of us this means that we will get to go home. Christians, especially those who live daily in the Word are anxious to go home. This world isn't our home. Some day we will be home with the Father who loves us more than anything else. It is hard for us to remain quiet. Yet when we speak we are condemned as crazy people.
I may not know what happens next. I know however who holds me up. Thank you, Lord Jesus!
Human nature is chaotic. You can see that so clearly when you step back and analyze it. We need God. The ugly eruptions in the landscape of time and space are because we left him. We decided to embrace the chaos instead of embracing God. We're now paying the price for that decision.
I haven't a clue what's going to happen next. Will there be another civil war? You may believe so when you realize that our rights are slowly being taken away from us. You may also believe it when you see the overriding control that technology has on life. It's very scary. As you may or may not know I'm one of those people....You know the ones. We use the Internet, but we still cling to the old ways of doing things as well.
The ugly eruptions will continue to happen. Some will say in the future that these are the growing pains of a new world order. They could be right. In Revelations Chapter 13, it does describe this new world order perfectly. We haven't as yet seen the One that will be worshiped nor have we yet seen the forerunner of that One. Yet we know he is coming.
For some of us this means that we will get to go home. Christians, especially those who live daily in the Word are anxious to go home. This world isn't our home. Some day we will be home with the Father who loves us more than anything else. It is hard for us to remain quiet. Yet when we speak we are condemned as crazy people.
I may not know what happens next. I know however who holds me up. Thank you, Lord Jesus!
Tuesday, August 8, 2017
Elation and Agony At The Same Time
Yeah, it's been that kind of week. I'm feeling a bit sick about the decision the zoning board made in regards to the potential WAWA in my hometown. Yet...there is some hope since they put nine conditions on the approval. It isn't over...not by a long shot. The agony of not knowing what WAWA will do is hard to take, but it is good to be prepared.
On the other hand, I'm elated because the group that is buying the St. Joseph's property plans to restore and renovate the buildings. It makes me happy to know this, especially since the borough stands to get some revenue out of the deal too.
I'm dealing with my own crisis. You know that I've been saying for awhile now that my finances are going south. Well...they have hit rock bottom now. It is my fault that I let it get this way. I know that. I also know that I do tend to get distracted by things. I get excited when I see progress with the society and start dreaming about the museum. Then it hits me that I have no resources to make that dream come true. I agonize over how I'm going to get out of this financial pit I'm in.
I do realize that my current situation is the same as the government's....We both are hedging our bets and hoping that things will turn around. I do have to believe that God won't allow things to get so bad. Otherwise what's the point in living? There is a lesson here to be learned. I know that borrowing without having the means to pay it back is wrong. The government is good at this though...as they borrow heavily mortgaging futures for present gains.
What can I do? I long to be free of the shackles of indebtedness forever. I don't like living in this fear of homelessness and poverty. Yet so many of us are already there.
On the other hand, I'm elated because the group that is buying the St. Joseph's property plans to restore and renovate the buildings. It makes me happy to know this, especially since the borough stands to get some revenue out of the deal too.
I'm dealing with my own crisis. You know that I've been saying for awhile now that my finances are going south. Well...they have hit rock bottom now. It is my fault that I let it get this way. I know that. I also know that I do tend to get distracted by things. I get excited when I see progress with the society and start dreaming about the museum. Then it hits me that I have no resources to make that dream come true. I agonize over how I'm going to get out of this financial pit I'm in.
I do realize that my current situation is the same as the government's....We both are hedging our bets and hoping that things will turn around. I do have to believe that God won't allow things to get so bad. Otherwise what's the point in living? There is a lesson here to be learned. I know that borrowing without having the means to pay it back is wrong. The government is good at this though...as they borrow heavily mortgaging futures for present gains.
What can I do? I long to be free of the shackles of indebtedness forever. I don't like living in this fear of homelessness and poverty. Yet so many of us are already there.
Tuesday, August 1, 2017
A Glimmer of Hope-Standing in The Way of Progress
Hi, I didn't realize how potent words can be. I should have. I do feel a bit guilty about all the fuss that I've been making...yet I just can't stop. I see that glimmer of hope. Someone besides me wants to preserve our history for future generations. I hear a lot about how many historical locations are really struggling right now. Some are saying that history is not important. They see only the dollar signs and not the reality.
Yes, I know that I'm standing in the way of progress. I admit that freely. Some progress is good. A updated renovation of a historic building is progress. A complete and total degradation of a vital community center isn't. Last week I lamented the fact that four old buildings would be demolished to place a gas station and convenience store on the site. I found out that it is worse than that. The whole community center would be affected dramatically....and not in a good way.
I know that I'm not the only one that feels this way. It made me feel a bit better about the situation. I know that I have a lot of work to do. Frankly in some ways I'm glad to do it because of that glimmer of hope. I know that I'm not alone. I know that there is a way out of this. I know that there is still the very real possibility that the area will be lost forever.
That makes a difference. The Lord works through me. He is the one that placed this passion to preserve history in my heart. He knows me right well and my weakness. He knows my financial needs and is even now setting things in motion for me. I have to believe this. I do need prayer and support from everyone in my community and beyond.
Yes, I know that I'm standing in the way of progress. I admit that freely. Some progress is good. A updated renovation of a historic building is progress. A complete and total degradation of a vital community center isn't. Last week I lamented the fact that four old buildings would be demolished to place a gas station and convenience store on the site. I found out that it is worse than that. The whole community center would be affected dramatically....and not in a good way.
I know that I'm not the only one that feels this way. It made me feel a bit better about the situation. I know that I have a lot of work to do. Frankly in some ways I'm glad to do it because of that glimmer of hope. I know that I'm not alone. I know that there is a way out of this. I know that there is still the very real possibility that the area will be lost forever.
That makes a difference. The Lord works through me. He is the one that placed this passion to preserve history in my heart. He knows me right well and my weakness. He knows my financial needs and is even now setting things in motion for me. I have to believe this. I do need prayer and support from everyone in my community and beyond.
Tuesday, July 25, 2017
Progress or Regression? What is Right about Property Rights and Time Restraints
I've been doing some research about historic values of properties over time. It is a very timely subject due to the fact that there are at least four historic buildings being threatened with demolition in my hometown. Some would say that it is progress. The new super gas and market center will bring revenue and jobs to the town. Others will lament the cold hard fact that money leads to a sort of regression and erosion of the area in question. Sure, it is reasonable to expect that the value of the properties in question has gone down because of this. It is also reasonable to suggest that traffic concerns will be noted as a non-issue for some. They want the convenience that super gas station/market will give them.
The facts are that the properties in question have been abandoned. Some of them have been abandoned for years due to circumstances beyond anyone's control. Others have been bought by corporations that are just looking for a quick buck. They don't see the property rights that have been established in the past to prevent something like this.
It has happened before with the same corporation in that area. They totally demolished a distinctive row of old businesses and old houses to build the original market. I'm of the opinion that they really don't care about the communities they serve. If they did care, then there wouldn't be this huge threat to destroy five beautiful old buildings. Some would call them eyesores and havens for the homeless to destroy on their own. Yes, one of the buildings definitely needs some TLC. The other four buildings could go on the market without too much work.
Many do feel that allowing the gas station/market to go up will actually show progress, while others know that it will actually be a regression of sorts. Both environmentally and aesthetically it will be a disaster that the town will not recover from or be able to reverse once it happens. There are time restraints to the process as well. It just seems that there is not enough time to do all that needs to be done. Looking at it from a financial standpoint enforces the view that it will be progressive and good for the community.
I feel sad that it has come to this. I also feel a bit helpless to do anything about it. It does seem like it's a done deal especially since the town's land is involved as well. I just can't help thinking that this isn't progress. The ordinances were put in place for good reasons and this smacks of encroachment and a loss of environmental controls. I can understand the lure of money when you are strapped for cash. I do...I'm at that point myself...but I can't think about selling my soul for that...
The facts are that the properties in question have been abandoned. Some of them have been abandoned for years due to circumstances beyond anyone's control. Others have been bought by corporations that are just looking for a quick buck. They don't see the property rights that have been established in the past to prevent something like this.
It has happened before with the same corporation in that area. They totally demolished a distinctive row of old businesses and old houses to build the original market. I'm of the opinion that they really don't care about the communities they serve. If they did care, then there wouldn't be this huge threat to destroy five beautiful old buildings. Some would call them eyesores and havens for the homeless to destroy on their own. Yes, one of the buildings definitely needs some TLC. The other four buildings could go on the market without too much work.
Many do feel that allowing the gas station/market to go up will actually show progress, while others know that it will actually be a regression of sorts. Both environmentally and aesthetically it will be a disaster that the town will not recover from or be able to reverse once it happens. There are time restraints to the process as well. It just seems that there is not enough time to do all that needs to be done. Looking at it from a financial standpoint enforces the view that it will be progressive and good for the community.
I feel sad that it has come to this. I also feel a bit helpless to do anything about it. It does seem like it's a done deal especially since the town's land is involved as well. I just can't help thinking that this isn't progress. The ordinances were put in place for good reasons and this smacks of encroachment and a loss of environmental controls. I can understand the lure of money when you are strapped for cash. I do...I'm at that point myself...but I can't think about selling my soul for that...
Tuesday, July 18, 2017
Reminders of the Deeply Disenfranchised
Yup, I was reminded again last night that there are many people that are completely disenfranchised. Many of these people are unable to gain access to the Internet and have no connections they can secure. I thought again of the set of circumstances that led me to where I am today. I feel pain because I know that these people really want to get involved with the community.
The fact is that it isn't easy. I can be grateful that I have this access for now, but that could change soon. Then I would be in the same situation as these people I meet who are deeply disenfranchised. It is unfortunate, you might say that this is the case. I do keep my eyes open for opportunities that would allow me to work without accessing the computer and the Internet. I can't find any.
It seems to me that there is a whole segment of the population that is deeply disenfranchised. Some are happy to be that way and are resistant to any changes. Others are fighting against the poverty and disenfranchisement that is occurring for those who have no means to connect with the deeply technological society we now are forced to live in. For some of these people this means a slow and painful death. For others it means a search to sever the ties that still bind them to the digital society and break free.
I imagine that in a perfect world that everyone would be free to live as they choose to live. Some will say that they can, but they are only fooling themselves. The persuasiveness of the government to penalize those who don't go along with their agenda is frightening. They are still pushing their dark agenda on the people. They just don't understand. The deeply disenfranchised don't want the government peeping over their shoulders telling them what they can and can't do.
Yet at the same time they are struggling to understand why the services they had depended on are no longer available for them. It is deeply disturbing to find out that some retail organizations refuse cash any more....Sweetgreens is the first restaurant to go completely cashless....This is very disturbing and tells me that they just don't want my money anymore. I felt cold when I saw the sign as I walked in Suburban Square recently. My stomach churned and I almost felt sick.
Why? I had to ask, but would get no coherent answers. Disenfranchisement will soon lead to chaos as those who don't understand why they are being denied services...or told to "go online." News Flash....not everyone does everything online....sigh.
I was reminded of that last night as I sensed the frustration and a bit of anger at the unfairness of it all....
The fact is that it isn't easy. I can be grateful that I have this access for now, but that could change soon. Then I would be in the same situation as these people I meet who are deeply disenfranchised. It is unfortunate, you might say that this is the case. I do keep my eyes open for opportunities that would allow me to work without accessing the computer and the Internet. I can't find any.
It seems to me that there is a whole segment of the population that is deeply disenfranchised. Some are happy to be that way and are resistant to any changes. Others are fighting against the poverty and disenfranchisement that is occurring for those who have no means to connect with the deeply technological society we now are forced to live in. For some of these people this means a slow and painful death. For others it means a search to sever the ties that still bind them to the digital society and break free.
I imagine that in a perfect world that everyone would be free to live as they choose to live. Some will say that they can, but they are only fooling themselves. The persuasiveness of the government to penalize those who don't go along with their agenda is frightening. They are still pushing their dark agenda on the people. They just don't understand. The deeply disenfranchised don't want the government peeping over their shoulders telling them what they can and can't do.
Yet at the same time they are struggling to understand why the services they had depended on are no longer available for them. It is deeply disturbing to find out that some retail organizations refuse cash any more....Sweetgreens is the first restaurant to go completely cashless....This is very disturbing and tells me that they just don't want my money anymore. I felt cold when I saw the sign as I walked in Suburban Square recently. My stomach churned and I almost felt sick.
Why? I had to ask, but would get no coherent answers. Disenfranchisement will soon lead to chaos as those who don't understand why they are being denied services...or told to "go online." News Flash....not everyone does everything online....sigh.
I was reminded of that last night as I sensed the frustration and a bit of anger at the unfairness of it all....
Tuesday, July 11, 2017
Community Matters: Reflections of A Local Citizen
Last week I celebrated July 4th by attending three local parades. The first one was my hometown parade which had gotten smaller and smaller with each passing year. Last year because it was the 125th anniversary there was a huge parade with five floats, one string band and a number of organizations riding antique cars. This year however it went back to what it had been with the exception of the two borough floats that were originally created for the 125th anniversary.
I admired the creativity of using the same floats and just making a few minor adjustments. It showed what a small group of people could do. I realized that by taking myself out of the picture and not pushing the organizations that I had pushed to participate...I had inadvertently became part of the problem as to why there had been a downturn in participation in the parade. It made me feel a bit guilty. I reflected on how the organizations had eagerly responded last year to my calls to participate in the parade. Was it just because it was the 125th anniversary? Maybe...but we'll never really know for sure.
The second parade I went to was larger because the town supported two of the three string bands that played in the parade. It seemed natural that the string bands would play for free or low cost for the community that supported them so heavily. I got up close to a couple of the members of the string band and noted the pride and joy on everyone's face. When I reflect on all the empty storefronts in this community, it depresses me. This parade helped me see that there is still a sense of community here even if it is just one day of the year.
I had some time to reflect as I walked to the third parade. The parade was just as short as my hometown's parade with some major differences. The music of the marching band thrilled me and took me back to when I marched in the parade as part of the high school band. I actually marched in the hometown parade three times. The first time was as part of a twirling team (I held the banner). The other two times were as part of the high school marching band where I held the banner.
Those were special times as I reflect back on them. It is heartening to see young people carrying on this tradition.
I didn't manage to get to any of the field events in the afternoon. I visited a couple of community events in other towns besides my hometown. It was educational. I can't say that I was disappointed by the low turnout at these events. It is hard to get people involved anymore. Community does matter. It is a lesson that our young people need to learn now or lose everything.
I admired the creativity of using the same floats and just making a few minor adjustments. It showed what a small group of people could do. I realized that by taking myself out of the picture and not pushing the organizations that I had pushed to participate...I had inadvertently became part of the problem as to why there had been a downturn in participation in the parade. It made me feel a bit guilty. I reflected on how the organizations had eagerly responded last year to my calls to participate in the parade. Was it just because it was the 125th anniversary? Maybe...but we'll never really know for sure.
The second parade I went to was larger because the town supported two of the three string bands that played in the parade. It seemed natural that the string bands would play for free or low cost for the community that supported them so heavily. I got up close to a couple of the members of the string band and noted the pride and joy on everyone's face. When I reflect on all the empty storefronts in this community, it depresses me. This parade helped me see that there is still a sense of community here even if it is just one day of the year.
I had some time to reflect as I walked to the third parade. The parade was just as short as my hometown's parade with some major differences. The music of the marching band thrilled me and took me back to when I marched in the parade as part of the high school band. I actually marched in the hometown parade three times. The first time was as part of a twirling team (I held the banner). The other two times were as part of the high school marching band where I held the banner.
Those were special times as I reflect back on them. It is heartening to see young people carrying on this tradition.
I didn't manage to get to any of the field events in the afternoon. I visited a couple of community events in other towns besides my hometown. It was educational. I can't say that I was disappointed by the low turnout at these events. It is hard to get people involved anymore. Community does matter. It is a lesson that our young people need to learn now or lose everything.
Tuesday, June 27, 2017
Reflections and Revelations: Living in an Increasingly Hostile World
When I first started this blog back in 2009 I really didn't know what was coming. I had an inkling as I watched the world grow dark. I understood that time was somewhat fluid. I was innocent of the increasing effects of technology in the hands of men.
I was still working back in 2009 but the company I was contracted out to had been sold. I witnessed first hand the devastation that merger caused. If I had really known that it was going to happen, I might have saved the anniversary book the company put out just before they announced the merger. I reflect back to that time every once in a while. I was in a good and what I thought was a solid position with work that may have lasted for years. Little did I know that the contract would be so temporary. I became unnecessary literally overnight.
The revelation that I could very easily be replaced took awhile to sink in. It hurt that the work I and my colleagues were doing could now be easily done remotely. I couldn't breathe for the pressure I was under at the time.
I wasn't ready for the hostility and hatred that surrounded me as I stepped out. It was only God's grace and mercy that stayed with me as I dealt with hostile forces. When I reflect back on that time I know that I learned a lot about personality types and how to deal with different situations. I made a few acquaintances when working at those locations. The revelations though were few. I felt like I was being used most of the time. I didn't like who I had become...a gossip and a bitter person. The Lord knew that I had to get out of that toxic situation. It was a relief when I was laid off in 2012.
It hasn't been easy. I haven't had full time employment for a very long time. Yet when I look back I realize that I have grown so much over these past five years. I've received revelations that I wouldn't have received had I remained where I was. I feel that I have grown as a child of God and that my eyes have been opened. Yes, I am living in an increasingly hostile world. I admit that sometimes I falter in my faith but God is still there.
I was still working back in 2009 but the company I was contracted out to had been sold. I witnessed first hand the devastation that merger caused. If I had really known that it was going to happen, I might have saved the anniversary book the company put out just before they announced the merger. I reflect back to that time every once in a while. I was in a good and what I thought was a solid position with work that may have lasted for years. Little did I know that the contract would be so temporary. I became unnecessary literally overnight.
The revelation that I could very easily be replaced took awhile to sink in. It hurt that the work I and my colleagues were doing could now be easily done remotely. I couldn't breathe for the pressure I was under at the time.
I wasn't ready for the hostility and hatred that surrounded me as I stepped out. It was only God's grace and mercy that stayed with me as I dealt with hostile forces. When I reflect back on that time I know that I learned a lot about personality types and how to deal with different situations. I made a few acquaintances when working at those locations. The revelations though were few. I felt like I was being used most of the time. I didn't like who I had become...a gossip and a bitter person. The Lord knew that I had to get out of that toxic situation. It was a relief when I was laid off in 2012.
It hasn't been easy. I haven't had full time employment for a very long time. Yet when I look back I realize that I have grown so much over these past five years. I've received revelations that I wouldn't have received had I remained where I was. I feel that I have grown as a child of God and that my eyes have been opened. Yes, I am living in an increasingly hostile world. I admit that sometimes I falter in my faith but God is still there.
Friday, June 23, 2017
Out of the Loop and Wary: The Disenfranchised
Hi, I've been doing a lot of reflecting lately over the increasing disenfranchisement of those who don't want to have their personal information "splashed" all over the Internet. It is discerning to say the least when potential employers ask you for personal information before they hire you. Yes, I do understand their concerns about hiring someone that could potentially wreck their business. What I don't understand is what happened to trusting the person enough to give them a chance? It seems like I'm being judged by what I can't control.
I am admittedly out of the loop when it comes to all the new technology and assurances that personal information will be safe. It seems to me that there wasn't a big issue with personal information getting into the wrong hands before the Internet. I am wary of employers who ask for very sensitive information online. This has hurt me because it seems that everyone is being too careless about what they share online. I am extremely uncomfortable about sharing personal information online. I have learned to open up a little because I needed to in order to search for employment.
There is a whole group of people out there however that are disenfranchised because they don't want to get online or have no desire to get on a computer. These people are understandably wary of the government's attempts to "push" them online by not having alternatives to getting information or getting much needed services. For them the push to get everyone online to do everything smacks a bit too much like "Big Brother". I do tend to agree in part with that premise. It is all about control. The media controls what information we see and has tried unsuccessfully (so far) to control how we think and feel. One of the biggest "pushes" is how we transact business and our currency. It is a bit frightening in a way when you realize how the governments of the world are pushing electronic currency. This is also one of the biggest obstacles for the disenfranchised.
Contrary to popular belief not everyone uses credit and debit cards to pay for items. Some of us still prefer cash because it is solid and tangible...unlike electronic currency. Then there's the increasing push not to accept cash at certain restaurants or making the person who hands you cash feel like a pariah for having it. It just isn't right.
I am admittedly out of the loop when it comes to all the new technology and assurances that personal information will be safe. It seems to me that there wasn't a big issue with personal information getting into the wrong hands before the Internet. I am wary of employers who ask for very sensitive information online. This has hurt me because it seems that everyone is being too careless about what they share online. I am extremely uncomfortable about sharing personal information online. I have learned to open up a little because I needed to in order to search for employment.
There is a whole group of people out there however that are disenfranchised because they don't want to get online or have no desire to get on a computer. These people are understandably wary of the government's attempts to "push" them online by not having alternatives to getting information or getting much needed services. For them the push to get everyone online to do everything smacks a bit too much like "Big Brother". I do tend to agree in part with that premise. It is all about control. The media controls what information we see and has tried unsuccessfully (so far) to control how we think and feel. One of the biggest "pushes" is how we transact business and our currency. It is a bit frightening in a way when you realize how the governments of the world are pushing electronic currency. This is also one of the biggest obstacles for the disenfranchised.
Contrary to popular belief not everyone uses credit and debit cards to pay for items. Some of us still prefer cash because it is solid and tangible...unlike electronic currency. Then there's the increasing push not to accept cash at certain restaurants or making the person who hands you cash feel like a pariah for having it. It just isn't right.
Tuesday, May 30, 2017
Is There Another Civil War Brewing Now in the US?
I've been reading the posts lately about President Trump and the attacks that the media have orchestrated. I've known for a long time that there is an extreme bias against those that still hold to the old fashioned ideas that our country was founded on. This extreme bias has been growing exponentially over the past nine years. Some would have you believe that the extreme bias has only reared its ugly head lately.
It isn't that hard to see anymore what's currently happening in our country. There are strong factions that want to rip out our history and wipe it off the face of the earth. They long to deny the Christian foundation that our country had. They don't understand that there are forces out there that want us to join in the global union and attack Christians.
I'm not sure as yet if there is another civil war brewing here in the US. The signs of polarity are there though. You can see the hate between those who would deny Jesus and the moral high ground and those who are trying desperately to hold onto that moral high ground. If there is another civil war it will be the Islamic base that will trigger it. I do sense that. Ishmael and Isaac's people have been fighting for millennia. They hate Christians. They want to usher in their Messiah.
Am I scared? No. I know that God has everything under his control. I know that he will strengthen me for the days ahead. I just need to be grounded in his word.
It isn't that hard to see anymore what's currently happening in our country. There are strong factions that want to rip out our history and wipe it off the face of the earth. They long to deny the Christian foundation that our country had. They don't understand that there are forces out there that want us to join in the global union and attack Christians.
I'm not sure as yet if there is another civil war brewing here in the US. The signs of polarity are there though. You can see the hate between those who would deny Jesus and the moral high ground and those who are trying desperately to hold onto that moral high ground. If there is another civil war it will be the Islamic base that will trigger it. I do sense that. Ishmael and Isaac's people have been fighting for millennia. They hate Christians. They want to usher in their Messiah.
Am I scared? No. I know that God has everything under his control. I know that he will strengthen me for the days ahead. I just need to be grounded in his word.
Tuesday, May 23, 2017
Remembering the Fallen and those who Served in the "Great War"
As we approach Memorial Day, I can't help thinking about those who made the ultimate sacrifice for us. This year is the hundredth anniversary of America's entry into WWI. World War I was known as the "Great War" until the start of WWII. It is interesting to note how different the world was before the Great War. Many towns and boroughs were still agriculturally based and not manufacture driven. There were still pockets of society that worked at tasks by hand.
When I contemplate the atmosphere that many lived in before the war, I realize that there are many similarities to today. We are going through a massive change in how work is seen. The rapidity of the changes and the pressure many are under to conform and accept those changes is somewhat overwhelming. I read that many of the pressures people were facing during the early 1900s were similar to the changes that are happening now. No one really wants to believe this. There is some denial that things really are changing that much.
Yet as we remember the fallen and those who served in the Great War, we can discover that the media influence was the same. The media dictates what is important. You only have to study the colorful posters of the era to see the persuasive factors. The media is good at drawing people in and confusing the issue. I do wonder how many signed up because of the media campaign. It would be very interesting to say the least to see what effects the media has on the general population.
I can't help thinking about how the world has changed. It is no longer the world in which soldiers, sailors and airmen fought for in the early days. Nowadays many of the jobs are run by machines leaving the human element out all together. I know that many of the soldiers during the first World War would have loved sending the machines out instead of exposing themselves to lethal toxins. It is remarkable that so many survived. The Great War showed us the true ugliness of mankind.
When I contemplate the atmosphere that many lived in before the war, I realize that there are many similarities to today. We are going through a massive change in how work is seen. The rapidity of the changes and the pressure many are under to conform and accept those changes is somewhat overwhelming. I read that many of the pressures people were facing during the early 1900s were similar to the changes that are happening now. No one really wants to believe this. There is some denial that things really are changing that much.
Yet as we remember the fallen and those who served in the Great War, we can discover that the media influence was the same. The media dictates what is important. You only have to study the colorful posters of the era to see the persuasive factors. The media is good at drawing people in and confusing the issue. I do wonder how many signed up because of the media campaign. It would be very interesting to say the least to see what effects the media has on the general population.
I can't help thinking about how the world has changed. It is no longer the world in which soldiers, sailors and airmen fought for in the early days. Nowadays many of the jobs are run by machines leaving the human element out all together. I know that many of the soldiers during the first World War would have loved sending the machines out instead of exposing themselves to lethal toxins. It is remarkable that so many survived. The Great War showed us the true ugliness of mankind.
Tuesday, May 9, 2017
In A Holding Pattern
Tuesday evenings are usually my time to write in this blog. Some weeks are busier than others so I put it off until Thursday evening. Other times I just don't have anything to say, so I neglect the blog entirely. I am in a holding pattern in many aspects of my life right now. I am processing so much information that it is difficult to process it all.
I do feel that I have been stuck in this now 5 year rut that doesn't seem to be getting any better. In fact it is hard to think that I've been in this precarious financial situation for as long as I have been. It is only by the grace of God that I still have what I have today. I'm positive that without some intervention I may have been out on the street or deceased. I still sometimes worry about the possibility of not being able to have a place to live. My financial situation hasn't improved any but there are some glimmers of hope.
Thinking about all the pressure and stress I've been under which has caused the now physical problems I'm experiencing has left me in this holding pattern. I wonder what is going to happen to me. I get depressed because I am no longer young. I look in the eyes of the people around me and see their pain. I want to help but feel like I'm in this holding pattern waiting for something to happen. Should I take the risks and step forward? I know I do need to move forward and release the paralysis that is dragging me down.
It is hard to know whether this time of waiting is a good thing or not. Some days I do feel helpless and alone even when others say they will be there. I want to believe that what's happening to me is a good thing. I want to trust that God has my back because I know he does. Sometimes though it is difficult to comprehend how he would even care for someone like me. Yet he does. He loved me so much that he sacrificed his only son for me. That's special....
So I wait in this holding pattern and pray for God's guidance...
I do feel that I have been stuck in this now 5 year rut that doesn't seem to be getting any better. In fact it is hard to think that I've been in this precarious financial situation for as long as I have been. It is only by the grace of God that I still have what I have today. I'm positive that without some intervention I may have been out on the street or deceased. I still sometimes worry about the possibility of not being able to have a place to live. My financial situation hasn't improved any but there are some glimmers of hope.
Thinking about all the pressure and stress I've been under which has caused the now physical problems I'm experiencing has left me in this holding pattern. I wonder what is going to happen to me. I get depressed because I am no longer young. I look in the eyes of the people around me and see their pain. I want to help but feel like I'm in this holding pattern waiting for something to happen. Should I take the risks and step forward? I know I do need to move forward and release the paralysis that is dragging me down.
It is hard to know whether this time of waiting is a good thing or not. Some days I do feel helpless and alone even when others say they will be there. I want to believe that what's happening to me is a good thing. I want to trust that God has my back because I know he does. Sometimes though it is difficult to comprehend how he would even care for someone like me. Yet he does. He loved me so much that he sacrificed his only son for me. That's special....
So I wait in this holding pattern and pray for God's guidance...
Thursday, May 4, 2017
Reflecting on God's Name
I went the the National Day of Prayer event this morning over at Rose Tree Park in Media. I arrived late but was there for most of the program. I thought about this year's theme "For Your Great Names Sake!" I realized that he is far bigger than we can ever imagine. I felt his presence today.
I couldn't help but reflect on how far we have sunk in the morass that society has brought us to today. I heard again the cry that nationalism is a good thing. I am beginning to understand a little bit about the unseen fight going on with the increasing use of electronic currency. It seems like a losing battle against shadowy forces. I was struck by Anne Lotz's prayer about American money having "In God We Trust" on it. I realized this is the main reason why this increasing push for everyone to use electronic currency. It did "blow" my mind to discover this.
Yes, we have sinned. We have turned our collective backs from God. Yet we expect him to rescue us from danger. There will come a day in the not so distant future when we will look back and realize that this was only the beginning of the end. I reflected on God's name and realized the promises he has for us.
I couldn't help but reflect on how far we have sunk in the morass that society has brought us to today. I heard again the cry that nationalism is a good thing. I am beginning to understand a little bit about the unseen fight going on with the increasing use of electronic currency. It seems like a losing battle against shadowy forces. I was struck by Anne Lotz's prayer about American money having "In God We Trust" on it. I realized this is the main reason why this increasing push for everyone to use electronic currency. It did "blow" my mind to discover this.
Yes, we have sinned. We have turned our collective backs from God. Yet we expect him to rescue us from danger. There will come a day in the not so distant future when we will look back and realize that this was only the beginning of the end. I reflected on God's name and realized the promises he has for us.
Thursday, April 27, 2017
Moving Higher and Going Deeper into My Soul
This week was a soul searching week. I discovered that I can move on from the sting of rejection and defeat. I know that my financial situation is getting more precarious by the day, but I still have hope. I am learning to reach out and use my resources. It won't be easy to get out of this pit that I've found myself in.
Yet even in this pit I know that the Lord is with me. I am moving higher now out of the despair that I allowed to seep into my soul. I am stronger than I was last week at this time. I can handle the pressure more now than I could then.
I am learning to step out of the pit and go deeper into my soul. It is scary. The Lord knows me. He knows my fears and doubts. I can remain secure in him.
I don't want to go back to what I was before I lost my job in 2012. I don't want to be someone that ignores the pain and walks away. I want to be what God has created me to be, a compassionate and loving person. I want to hear the Lord say to me; "Well Done Good and Faithful Servant."
So I work diligently and press forward to find my calling and ministry. God knows how much I need to feel needed. Thank you for loving me, Lord God.
Yet even in this pit I know that the Lord is with me. I am moving higher now out of the despair that I allowed to seep into my soul. I am stronger than I was last week at this time. I can handle the pressure more now than I could then.
I am learning to step out of the pit and go deeper into my soul. It is scary. The Lord knows me. He knows my fears and doubts. I can remain secure in him.
I don't want to go back to what I was before I lost my job in 2012. I don't want to be someone that ignores the pain and walks away. I want to be what God has created me to be, a compassionate and loving person. I want to hear the Lord say to me; "Well Done Good and Faithful Servant."
So I work diligently and press forward to find my calling and ministry. God knows how much I need to feel needed. Thank you for loving me, Lord God.
Thursday, April 20, 2017
Another obstacle in the Road-Choices to Be Made
As much as I'm thankful for all the support I'm receiving I still feel a bit lost. I received a blow to my ego today and felt the ground fall beneath my feet. A income source suddenly dried up. It was my only income source. I am crushed but not forsaken. I know that the Lord has something better for me. Yet at this moment I am in a panic mode. There are some choices to be made. Choices that I'm struggling to make.
It is a huge obstacle in the road. I'm not sure where to turn or what to do. Lord knows that I need income. My heart aches now that this income stream has dried up. I know I have to pick myself up and do the hard things that I've been putting off hoping to continue this income stream indefinitely. Yes, you may call me a fool for hoping that it would continue. Yes, you may say that I should have seen this coming and prepared for it.
How do you prepare for yet another bruising of confidence and the feeling that things have fallen all apart? I relate to the recent Oh My Soul song by Casting Crowns. Right now it is so hard to lay it down and not worry about how I am going to recover from this loss. I know that I am not alone, yet I fear that I'm just not strong enough to handle all the stresses that are weighing me down. I am admittedly scared and it's not a good feeling. I have to trust that God's got this and he will open up a revenue stream for me.
It is a huge obstacle in the road. I'm not sure where to turn or what to do. Lord knows that I need income. My heart aches now that this income stream has dried up. I know I have to pick myself up and do the hard things that I've been putting off hoping to continue this income stream indefinitely. Yes, you may call me a fool for hoping that it would continue. Yes, you may say that I should have seen this coming and prepared for it.
How do you prepare for yet another bruising of confidence and the feeling that things have fallen all apart? I relate to the recent Oh My Soul song by Casting Crowns. Right now it is so hard to lay it down and not worry about how I am going to recover from this loss. I know that I am not alone, yet I fear that I'm just not strong enough to handle all the stresses that are weighing me down. I am admittedly scared and it's not a good feeling. I have to trust that God's got this and he will open up a revenue stream for me.
Tuesday, April 11, 2017
Reflecting on Christ's Sacrifice for me
In the Christian world the period known as "Holy Week" is actually only four days from Thursday evening until Sunday morning. If you take the time to really reflect on those four (actually three days) you do come out with a better and richer understanding of the Lord's sacrifice. I have been reflecting a lot on the passages in Matthew that describe the afternoon before the Lord's supper. It is necessary to reflect on the meaning of Passover whenever you read these passages.
It is only when you take time to reflect on what happened and get a good context in history that you really can comprehend the meaning of the Lord's sacrifice. I find tiny nuggets of gold every time I read the Easter passages in Matthew and Mark. I become overwhelmed by the extreme sacrifice fully knowing that I couldn't take his place. He is strong when I am weak.
It still boggles my mind a bit when I concentrate on these passages. I can't help but stand in awe of his unfailing love for me. I admittedly have some times questioned why the Lord had to sacrifice himself for my sins. It just seemed too inhumane. Yet I read again that without the shedding of blood there can be no redemption. It was his blood that redeemed me.
I am not special. I am a sinner saved by God's grace. I understand all too well that he didn't have to sacrifice himself. He could have walked away, yet he chose to suffer that horrible death. He chose to break the power of sin over my life.
He is now my advocate and the Lord of my soul. In him do I put my trust.
It is only when you take time to reflect on what happened and get a good context in history that you really can comprehend the meaning of the Lord's sacrifice. I find tiny nuggets of gold every time I read the Easter passages in Matthew and Mark. I become overwhelmed by the extreme sacrifice fully knowing that I couldn't take his place. He is strong when I am weak.
It still boggles my mind a bit when I concentrate on these passages. I can't help but stand in awe of his unfailing love for me. I admittedly have some times questioned why the Lord had to sacrifice himself for my sins. It just seemed too inhumane. Yet I read again that without the shedding of blood there can be no redemption. It was his blood that redeemed me.
I am not special. I am a sinner saved by God's grace. I understand all too well that he didn't have to sacrifice himself. He could have walked away, yet he chose to suffer that horrible death. He chose to break the power of sin over my life.
He is now my advocate and the Lord of my soul. In him do I put my trust.
Tuesday, March 28, 2017
Going Higher and Reaching Further
It is kind of strange how things happen. You know that a certain thing is wrong but you're not sure how to deal with it. Lately I've been going through some pretty rough patches. There have been days that I've even questioned my sanity.
I am learning slowly to see things in a different light and take the time to step back before opening my mouth or writing something that I'll regret later. I know that I still have a lot to learn. The atmosphere that I've chosen to saturate myself in is not good. I am realizing that I only need to reach out towards the light of God's word to break through the morass of evil.
It is not easy. No one ever said it would be. There will be some things that I can't ever accept. Frankly they make me sick. Yet I realize that the young people especially haven't been exposed to what I was exposed to when I was younger. They have no foundation.
So I am going higher than I've ever gone before to reach out to those who need to hear about God's saving grace. It is scary. I have to admit that. I can't do it on my own. I need help. It is not wrong to ask for help nor is it a sign of weakness. When I reach further and put myself in someone else's shoes, I can see the fear and distress in their eyes. They are reflected in my own. I lean on the Lord. I know that he will direct my path.
Yes, I need prayer. I need to start seeing people in a different light and embracing their differences. I need to bring them before the throne of grace and not judge them. This too is hard. I can be very judgmental at times. It pains me when I see the hatred and malice. Yet I know I have felt that way too. I ask forgiveness. I am going higher and reaching further to bring my Savior's love to a dying world.
I am learning slowly to see things in a different light and take the time to step back before opening my mouth or writing something that I'll regret later. I know that I still have a lot to learn. The atmosphere that I've chosen to saturate myself in is not good. I am realizing that I only need to reach out towards the light of God's word to break through the morass of evil.
It is not easy. No one ever said it would be. There will be some things that I can't ever accept. Frankly they make me sick. Yet I realize that the young people especially haven't been exposed to what I was exposed to when I was younger. They have no foundation.
So I am going higher than I've ever gone before to reach out to those who need to hear about God's saving grace. It is scary. I have to admit that. I can't do it on my own. I need help. It is not wrong to ask for help nor is it a sign of weakness. When I reach further and put myself in someone else's shoes, I can see the fear and distress in their eyes. They are reflected in my own. I lean on the Lord. I know that he will direct my path.
Yes, I need prayer. I need to start seeing people in a different light and embracing their differences. I need to bring them before the throne of grace and not judge them. This too is hard. I can be very judgmental at times. It pains me when I see the hatred and malice. Yet I know I have felt that way too. I ask forgiveness. I am going higher and reaching further to bring my Savior's love to a dying world.
Thursday, March 23, 2017
Suffering servant
It's been a rough ride. I didn't feel like posting anything last week. I've done some idiotic things in my life. One of them is to follow a wiki-how post on how to get rid of a sinus headache. I didn't follow it completely. I'm such an idiot!
This sinus headache is a result of the sinusitis infection that I had two weeks ago. I haven't really gotten over it. I can blame the change in the weather as it has been up and down too much lately. I can blame it on the environment. Living here exposes me to so many substances. I never used to be allergic to anything when I was a child. Now it seems that I've picked up quite a few allergies.
The pressure sometimes is very hard to bear. I feel it pounding now. I just wish it would end. I want to feel normal again. Maybe tomorrow...
This sinus headache is a result of the sinusitis infection that I had two weeks ago. I haven't really gotten over it. I can blame the change in the weather as it has been up and down too much lately. I can blame it on the environment. Living here exposes me to so many substances. I never used to be allergic to anything when I was a child. Now it seems that I've picked up quite a few allergies.
The pressure sometimes is very hard to bear. I feel it pounding now. I just wish it would end. I want to feel normal again. Maybe tomorrow...
Thursday, March 9, 2017
Why am I so fearful, Lord?
I had a scare Tuesday morning. My face went numb. I was afraid to admit that the pressure that I've been under was finally manifesting itself in a physical way. I was actually sobbing and crying out to God. I know a lot of it is what I've been exposing myself to on Facebook. I can't help myself. I freely admit it now.
I know a lot of you are the same way. You just can't look away. It is scary when you see all the hate being manifested towards Christians around the world. I sometimes don't know if I can handle it. I do pray continuously now for our broken nation. The sore has been cut and is now bleeding all over the place. It is a black thing to discover the venom that flows right outside your door.
Yet I do know this. I know that the Lord Jesus has me in the palm of his strong hands. He knows what I'm going through. He understands the deep pain that I'm feeling now as I see and hear the hate that spews out like a putrid river. Why am I so fearful, Lord? It is foolish to fear when I know that he is holding me and protecting me from all harm. I have to remember that I am not alone.
I have to remind myself that I can do all things through him. It is hard. The pressure is increasing to conform. Lord, I can't do that. I have to follow your will and not my own. How well I know this...yet sometimes it is so hard to do. Will I be brave enough to stand up for what I believe in? I like to think so. Lord, I am weak and easily scared. I lean on you. Please guide me in the way I should go and be with our government leaders. Help them make wise decisions and strengthen their resolve against the evil one. Block all those who would tear or dissolve our government for their own agenda.
I am fearful. Please forgive me for not trusting you enough. My heart knows that you are in control but my mind imagines the worst. I put it all in your hands, Lord God. You are my Savior and my Lord.
I know a lot of you are the same way. You just can't look away. It is scary when you see all the hate being manifested towards Christians around the world. I sometimes don't know if I can handle it. I do pray continuously now for our broken nation. The sore has been cut and is now bleeding all over the place. It is a black thing to discover the venom that flows right outside your door.
Yet I do know this. I know that the Lord Jesus has me in the palm of his strong hands. He knows what I'm going through. He understands the deep pain that I'm feeling now as I see and hear the hate that spews out like a putrid river. Why am I so fearful, Lord? It is foolish to fear when I know that he is holding me and protecting me from all harm. I have to remember that I am not alone.
I have to remind myself that I can do all things through him. It is hard. The pressure is increasing to conform. Lord, I can't do that. I have to follow your will and not my own. How well I know this...yet sometimes it is so hard to do. Will I be brave enough to stand up for what I believe in? I like to think so. Lord, I am weak and easily scared. I lean on you. Please guide me in the way I should go and be with our government leaders. Help them make wise decisions and strengthen their resolve against the evil one. Block all those who would tear or dissolve our government for their own agenda.
I am fearful. Please forgive me for not trusting you enough. My heart knows that you are in control but my mind imagines the worst. I put it all in your hands, Lord God. You are my Savior and my Lord.
Thursday, March 2, 2017
Ripples of Light and Dark
I've had a busy two weeks and haven't had the opportunity to post here. Things are starting again to look a bit brighter on the job front. I had one pretty good phone interview and another one lined up for tomorrow. I also got an invitation to write for another organization. These are the ripples of light in my life. I can't be sure how any of it will work out for me. Those are the ripples of dark that try to drag me down.
The situations that are going on in Washington DC also have those ripples of light and dark. The ripples of light are the promises to create jobs in America and secure our borders. The ripples of dark are the environmental concerns and security concerns. I hope that these concerns are addressed. There is a real strong push back trying to discredit the new government from many who feel it is an illegitimate government. I get that. There is an equally strong pull to keep going forward despite the obstacles.
I don't know everything. All I do know is that the person in the White House now was miraculously placed there by God. It just had to be. There is no other explanation for me. So I know that this wave of hate is directly due to an awakening of sorts. At least this is what I'm seeing here. Why would there be such hate if that wasn't true? I know the arguments about the river of hate that has been simmering for the past eight years. Yes, I've seen that too. Yet I can't help thinking that it really hasn't been as bad as some might presume it had.
The thing that I have to keep reminding myself and remembering is God is in control. He is the one who controls all things through us. We just have to trust him.
The situations that are going on in Washington DC also have those ripples of light and dark. The ripples of light are the promises to create jobs in America and secure our borders. The ripples of dark are the environmental concerns and security concerns. I hope that these concerns are addressed. There is a real strong push back trying to discredit the new government from many who feel it is an illegitimate government. I get that. There is an equally strong pull to keep going forward despite the obstacles.
I don't know everything. All I do know is that the person in the White House now was miraculously placed there by God. It just had to be. There is no other explanation for me. So I know that this wave of hate is directly due to an awakening of sorts. At least this is what I'm seeing here. Why would there be such hate if that wasn't true? I know the arguments about the river of hate that has been simmering for the past eight years. Yes, I've seen that too. Yet I can't help thinking that it really hasn't been as bad as some might presume it had.
The thing that I have to keep reminding myself and remembering is God is in control. He is the one who controls all things through us. We just have to trust him.
Thursday, February 16, 2017
Reflections on a Lost Generation
I've been thinking a lot about the children who are now growing up without the benefits that I had as a child. For many of these children their only sources of information is on the Internet and on social media outlets. Libraries are slowly but surely getting rid of paper books and microfiche because it is not worth keeping. Living life through the eyes of a screen that could so easily manipulate what you see and hear is not living. Children are now being taught not to think for themselves.
Some would say that this situation was a long time coming. That children of the our generation have exasperated the problem by allowing it to happen. We were too eager to embrace the new world that we lost sight of the old world and its many charms. We didn't know that by embracing the new technologies we were in fact signing our death warrants.
Kids today don't understand the concepts of freedom. They haven't got any stable and solid foundations. Their foundations were ripped from them at birth. They were the recipients of what many are calling a whole new world.
I remember being extremely frightened by the pictures and images I saw when I was around 10 years old of the future world. I am realizing that we are living in that frightening future world where everything seems to be controlled remotely. Some are okay with this. They embrace all the new technology and don't mind that more and more people are living in a fantasy world set up by a government bent on controlling us.
I admit that some of the technology is good. I like being able to communicate with others through the Internet. I like being able to write my thoughts here for others to see. Yet I've lost something too. I used to write my thoughts on paper and reflect on them. I haven't done that for a while. I miss it.
Lord knows that being able to communicate ideas and learn new concepts is also a good thing. Yet I can't help thinking about the cost of all this progress. This generation is a lost generation because they just don't know what hard work is....at least the people I know really don't. I admit that I struggle with the concept when it feels like there is really nothing to do.
Some would say that this situation was a long time coming. That children of the our generation have exasperated the problem by allowing it to happen. We were too eager to embrace the new world that we lost sight of the old world and its many charms. We didn't know that by embracing the new technologies we were in fact signing our death warrants.
Kids today don't understand the concepts of freedom. They haven't got any stable and solid foundations. Their foundations were ripped from them at birth. They were the recipients of what many are calling a whole new world.
I remember being extremely frightened by the pictures and images I saw when I was around 10 years old of the future world. I am realizing that we are living in that frightening future world where everything seems to be controlled remotely. Some are okay with this. They embrace all the new technology and don't mind that more and more people are living in a fantasy world set up by a government bent on controlling us.
I admit that some of the technology is good. I like being able to communicate with others through the Internet. I like being able to write my thoughts here for others to see. Yet I've lost something too. I used to write my thoughts on paper and reflect on them. I haven't done that for a while. I miss it.
Lord knows that being able to communicate ideas and learn new concepts is also a good thing. Yet I can't help thinking about the cost of all this progress. This generation is a lost generation because they just don't know what hard work is....at least the people I know really don't. I admit that I struggle with the concept when it feels like there is really nothing to do.
Tuesday, February 7, 2017
Nine Years-Seems Like Yesterday
My little brother's oldest daughter turned nine today. It does seem like only yesterday when I held her in my arms as a baby. The world has changed a lot since 2008. It was that year when the economy went "south" with the "Great Recession". It was that year when the company I was contracted out to work for was bought out.
Unfortunately I can't really recall any good thing that happened during those nine years. It's sad but true. So many people have been affected in a negative way with all the changes in technology. I really can't say that my life has improved either during these nine years...at least not financially.
I can say that I am a more open and aware person than I was nine years ago. I am definitely more actively involved in my community. I've seen things happen that give me hope for the future. I like the good changes I see in Aydia. She is growing up to be a beautiful young lady.
I do thank God for Aydia. She has brought light into my life and caused a glimmer of hope to pierce my soul. For her sake, I am praying that the Lord will protect and guide her through this veil of tears. Strengthen her for the coming days, Lord God and give her wisdom to combat those who would tear her away from you. Bless her family, Lord God and her little sister, Aubrey. Keep her in your sight, Lord God.
Unfortunately I can't really recall any good thing that happened during those nine years. It's sad but true. So many people have been affected in a negative way with all the changes in technology. I really can't say that my life has improved either during these nine years...at least not financially.
I can say that I am a more open and aware person than I was nine years ago. I am definitely more actively involved in my community. I've seen things happen that give me hope for the future. I like the good changes I see in Aydia. She is growing up to be a beautiful young lady.
I do thank God for Aydia. She has brought light into my life and caused a glimmer of hope to pierce my soul. For her sake, I am praying that the Lord will protect and guide her through this veil of tears. Strengthen her for the coming days, Lord God and give her wisdom to combat those who would tear her away from you. Bless her family, Lord God and her little sister, Aubrey. Keep her in your sight, Lord God.
Thursday, January 26, 2017
In Desperate Straits Once Again-The Struggle to Find Work
I didn't think I'd be here again worrying about paying for rent. I can understand that I should have gotten employment by now. I can understand that things are costing more and more. I am in desperate straits once again. I know I should trust the Lord, but it is so difficult when you are facing the very distinct possibility of being out on the street.
The only reason I'm not yet there is that I am an unpaid caregiver. People are depending on me. It is hard. I do struggle to find work that I can do. I am tired and weary. No one seemed to understand what I'm feeling right now. How can they when they are struggling themselves? I can throw a pity party about my current situation or I can do something.
The struggle to find work is real. I have no real skill sets that employers can use. I haven't been in a real work environment for five years. Whenever I think about that....I am amazed that I've lasted this long without steady income.
My prayer tonight is for a release from this dark hole that I've found myself in. I need funds now to support myself and my family. I hate posting this...but I'm desperate.
The only reason I'm not yet there is that I am an unpaid caregiver. People are depending on me. It is hard. I do struggle to find work that I can do. I am tired and weary. No one seemed to understand what I'm feeling right now. How can they when they are struggling themselves? I can throw a pity party about my current situation or I can do something.
The struggle to find work is real. I have no real skill sets that employers can use. I haven't been in a real work environment for five years. Whenever I think about that....I am amazed that I've lasted this long without steady income.
My prayer tonight is for a release from this dark hole that I've found myself in. I need funds now to support myself and my family. I hate posting this...but I'm desperate.
Tuesday, January 17, 2017
Praying for A New Beginning-The New Administration
In just a few days we will welcome a new President. Some days it seems unreal that things could change as much as promised. I hear so much about the ways that Democrats are still dragging their feet. I'm also hearing that people are panicking about the dismantling of some "pet projects."
I am praying for a new beginning. The new administration has a lot to do to reverse globalization's effects. Those effects are still re-vibrating even now.
I do feel that things do have to change. I know that God's hand is in this. I am sensing that there are forces that would love to destroy the hope we have. Yet God will protect us. He will guide us in the way we should go.
I am praying for a new beginning. The new administration has a lot to do to reverse globalization's effects. Those effects are still re-vibrating even now.
I do feel that things do have to change. I know that God's hand is in this. I am sensing that there are forces that would love to destroy the hope we have. Yet God will protect us. He will guide us in the way we should go.
Tuesday, January 10, 2017
More signs of the End Times: Electronic Currency
I am becoming more and more aware of the increasing control that the electronic superhighway has on people everywhere. It is so easy to see the influence of technology on the world at large. This technology and the innovations has been stealing work for a while now. Kids today really don't realize how "closed in" we really are as a society. They are taught from an early age to accept what they read on the Internet as truth. Some of it is truth but kids have no filter to tell the truth from the falsehoods.
I know that I'm considered some what of a Luddite because I don't get into shopping and all the social media channels on the Internet. I also don't do online banking or use the new apps that allow you to pay electronically. Yes it is convenient not to have to pull money physically out of the bank. Yes, it is great just to wave a card and get what you want instantaneously.
What has me concerned and should have you concerned is the rapid movement towards electronic currency. Four of the world's biggest banks are contemplating using this digital cash for trades in 2018. What is to stop them from using this same electronic currency for other transactions? There is already at least one country (Sweden) who has decided to go cash free and stopped issuing physical currency.
The problem with this is that electronic currency gives too much control to those who run the financial institutions to wipe out your savings, control what you can have and deny services because you don't have the right electronic currency. I guess my real problem is that who is to say that you have money when you don't physically have it. It is too easy for someone to block you from getting anything. It is also one more step towards the "Mark of the Beast" in Revelation.
By having that electronic control someone could possibly control who lives and dies...definitely something to think about when you use your debt card....
I know that I'm considered some what of a Luddite because I don't get into shopping and all the social media channels on the Internet. I also don't do online banking or use the new apps that allow you to pay electronically. Yes it is convenient not to have to pull money physically out of the bank. Yes, it is great just to wave a card and get what you want instantaneously.
What has me concerned and should have you concerned is the rapid movement towards electronic currency. Four of the world's biggest banks are contemplating using this digital cash for trades in 2018. What is to stop them from using this same electronic currency for other transactions? There is already at least one country (Sweden) who has decided to go cash free and stopped issuing physical currency.
The problem with this is that electronic currency gives too much control to those who run the financial institutions to wipe out your savings, control what you can have and deny services because you don't have the right electronic currency. I guess my real problem is that who is to say that you have money when you don't physically have it. It is too easy for someone to block you from getting anything. It is also one more step towards the "Mark of the Beast" in Revelation.
By having that electronic control someone could possibly control who lives and dies...definitely something to think about when you use your debt card....
Tuesday, January 3, 2017
A New Year, A New Hope
It does seem like the years have sped by. I can't help thinking that it has been seven years since I first started this blog. Actually sometimes it feels like it has been longer. I have grown so much as a person in the past seven years. I have learned a lot of hard lessons. Yet I am still here.
This is a new year. This will be a year of preparation for me to move forward and embrace hope. I can no longer wallow in the past or let the circumstances of my life dictate my life. Yes, there are some scary things that are happening that I have no control over. Yes, I admit that I've been beating myself up for not embracing technology like so many others have. Yet I know that there is an undercurrent of society that is pushing back from the smothering embrace of technology. They know as I do that technology, no matter how good it is, won't replace human ability.
I'm feeling a new hope that I'm praying will grow and take root. It has been a long dark tunnel with no end in sight. I'm learning to be grateful for what the Lord is giving me with this avenue of communication. I realize that things could be a whole lot worse for me. I'm blessed with food, shelter and family who still support me through this financial crisis.
I can praise God for all that he has given me. I can move forward in this new year with confidence that the Lord will be with me every step of the way.
This is a new year. This will be a year of preparation for me to move forward and embrace hope. I can no longer wallow in the past or let the circumstances of my life dictate my life. Yes, there are some scary things that are happening that I have no control over. Yes, I admit that I've been beating myself up for not embracing technology like so many others have. Yet I know that there is an undercurrent of society that is pushing back from the smothering embrace of technology. They know as I do that technology, no matter how good it is, won't replace human ability.
I'm feeling a new hope that I'm praying will grow and take root. It has been a long dark tunnel with no end in sight. I'm learning to be grateful for what the Lord is giving me with this avenue of communication. I realize that things could be a whole lot worse for me. I'm blessed with food, shelter and family who still support me through this financial crisis.
I can praise God for all that he has given me. I can move forward in this new year with confidence that the Lord will be with me every step of the way.
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