Reflections and Revelations: Living in an Increasingly Hostile World

When I first started this blog back in 2009 I really didn't know what was coming. I had an inkling as I watched the world grow dark. I understood that time was somewhat fluid. I was innocent of the increasing effects of technology in the hands of men.

I was still working back in 2009 but the company I was contracted out to had been sold. I witnessed first hand the devastation that merger caused. If I had really known that it was going to happen, I might have saved the anniversary book the company put out just before they announced the merger. I reflect back to that time every once in a while. I was in a good and what I thought was a solid position with work that may have lasted for years. Little did I know that the contract would be so temporary. I became unnecessary literally overnight.

The revelation that I could very easily be replaced took awhile to sink in. It hurt that the work I and my colleagues were doing could now be easily done remotely. I couldn't breathe for the pressure I was under at the time.

I wasn't ready for the hostility and hatred that surrounded me as I stepped out. It was only God's grace and mercy that stayed with me as I dealt with hostile forces. When I reflect back on that time I know that I learned a lot about personality types and how to deal with different situations. I made a few acquaintances when working at those locations. The revelations though were few. I felt like I was being used most of the time. I didn't like who I had become...a gossip and a bitter person. The Lord knew that I had to get out of that toxic situation. It was a relief when I was laid off in 2012.

It hasn't been easy. I haven't had full time employment for a very long time. Yet when I look back I realize that I have grown so much over these past five years. I've received revelations that I wouldn't have received had I remained where I was. I feel that I have grown as a child of God and that my eyes have been opened. Yes, I am living in an increasingly hostile world. I admit that sometimes I falter in my faith but God is still there.