Dreaming of a better world-fantasy or reality

You would think by now that I would face reality. I haven't. I still hold out hope, because it is the only thing that keeps me going. I do dream of a better world. I don't think it's fantasy to believe that things will get better. Some would say that reality is that things are getting worse. I hear about all the violence around me and cringe. I know the fears that all of us have. Yet I still dream. I can't fathom the world my little nieces will grow up in. Maybe for their sakes, and for their contemporaries, I wish for a better world. Is it an impossible dream? Only the Lord knows for sure.

I know the Lord has a plan for me. He wants me to dream of that better world, and share the vision with others. I know that I can't bemoan the present state of this fallen world. All I can do is try to change my corner of it by being open to those in need around me. I can't be afraid to reach out. Maybe if I did more of that, then I could in some small way make a better world.

Welcome to the World

We welcomed into the world a baby girl Saturday, May 19th. Actually she is my newest niece. I now have three nieces...how cool is that! Aubrey Rae was two weeks early, but welcomed nevertheless. I also "birthed", if you can call it that, a new book. I'm like any parent, still a bit nervous about what's coming next. It's hard to let go. You know you must, because God's will is done.

I truly believe God had his hand on this project from the beginning and have to believe that he will continue to have his hand in it. Just like a new baby, you have to believe that God has his hands on him or her. I know God will bless this little one and that God has great things in store for her.

Overwhelmed but hanging on

As you can see from the date on this post, I deviated from my usual Tuesday blog. I do that from time to time as work requires me to get away from the computer. Yes, I know what you are thinking. What work could she possibly mean? Being in the writing profession, you don't get a lot of recognition and you "fight" with thousands of other writers to get your words in print....Yes, I do know how easy it is nowadays to get something out. Any one can do it.

Lately I have been feeling overwhelmed by everything that's been going on both in the world and in my own personal life. I am hanging on, and I am grateful to the Lord for this time. I know my loved ones are growing impatient with me as they don't understand the quagmire that is the job market today. I can't fault them for that. I often wish for a simple process to get the job I know is out there for me. I know the Lord will put me in a position that will suit me, but for now I hang on.

In a waiting mode-Trying to pick up the pieces

Two weeks ago now, I saw my last regular paycheck. Some have probably already guessed my current status. I knew a good part of it was that I was unwilling to continue to float from one place to another. Dealing with one company is work enough for me. Right now I'm just trying to pick up the pieces of my life and move forward. It's hard. A lot of my life did revolve around my job. I didn't live, eat and breathe it, but I came very close at one time.

I'm now at what some would call a waiting mode. I wait for someone to get back to me. I continue my research and I pray for my sanity. Some days time seems like an anvil. I know plenty of others are in the same situation. They want to work. They ache for some purpose to take away this feeling of dread that envelopes them when they think about the future. Yes, I admit I'm scared. Who wouldn't be?

Tough times but strong people

I have my ups and downs...times when I feel as if the world is going to end and other times when I feel as if I have the world at my feet. I look at the strong people around me. I wonder how they manage through the tough times. Is there some magic formula that gets them through? Or is it only by sheer will that they stand straight and tall through it all?

I am learning through this tough time that nothing is concrete but God. I know that it's only through him that I can stand strong. I know this, but it's hard to put into practice. Time seems to slip through your fingers. You keep putting it off or saying I can do it myself. How foolish!

Even the experts tell you that you can't. Yet that is just what we all want to do. We worry and don't trust God that he has the best plan for us. We complain when it seems as if everything is falling apart. We hide our true feelings and don't give ourselves time to heal from the hurt that still rips us apart.

Weighted down and overwhelmed

Do you ever get the feeling that you are weighted down and overwhelmed by life? I've been feeling that way these past weeks as I try valiantly to conquer the sea of despair that is the current job market. I do see it in the faces of the people that I meet daily. I see it when I go here on-line with all stories of people struggling just to find meaning in life. I started a new blog entitled "Unemployment stories" which will have stories of people that are feeling overwhelmed by the obstacles that they are facing now that they are unemployed.

This blog will continue to be about time and random thoughts about God. I'm hoping with this new blog to post my progress through this unsettled period and gather stories from others as well.

Blown away by blessings

Yes, I have had a tough month dealing with loss. No, it wasn't the earth shattering loss that brings a person to his/her knees. It was the kind of loss all of us are experiencing nowadays with the terrible economy. This kind of loss, they tell you at my stage of life, can be devastating because for some your employment defines who you are. Yet I have been blown away by blessings. I can say with utmost confidence that the Lord is with me, and that he is still providing for my needs even now.

I don't know what my future will hold now. No one really does. Some may say they do or try to predict it in many ways, but they don't. The hardest lesson I learned and that I'm still learning is to trust God. Most of us, myself included, prefer to trust ourselves or any number of things not realizing that ultimately God is in control. I tell myself this every day whenever I feel as if my world is collapsing all around me or I hear about the violence that has taken another life. God does have a plan for my life, and I need to be open to it.

I am grateful to have this avenue to express my thoughts, for support from my friends and family and for God's provision.