Reflections on Time and Space

When I started this blog back in 2009 one of my main focuses was on time and space. The title of the blog reflects this. I realized as I moved forward that the blog kind of morphed into a reflection of the times in which we all live. Many of us have suffered over the past eleven years. I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that it's been that long.

I met a lot of people during the time I was gainfully employed in Center City. I learned a lot of hard lessons which I incorporated in a yet unfinished novel. I remember the huge novel that I started while working for one place back in 2003. I did finish that one, but have left it on the "shelf." My writing had taken a turn by 2011. I decided to take my mom's advice and write about something I knew. I decided to write about my hometown. The book sold well for the first few months but sales dwindled after that time.

When I reflect on the people I've met because of the book I realize that I've been blessed. So many would have wallowed in despair but I didn't. I marveled at the history I was learning and felt blessed. I know I wouldn't have met these people any other way. My eyes have been opened to the rich historic treasures we have here in abundance.

I heard a lot of rumblings about government control. I've experienced it. Yet I can honestly say that I wouldn't be where I am without some government control. I grant that I'm leery about the direction the government is taking now. It doesn't seem right somehow to force someone to do something they feel strongly against doing. I wonder at how the world will be like for my little nieces and grand nephew.

When I reflect on God I realize that I am in the right place in his divine plan. He does hold me in the palm of his mighty hands. I don't have to stress about the condition of our country or what is going on. I can rest because he has control of both time and space.

I do stand in awe of the Lord's power. I know I can trust him in all things. He is the Alpha and the Omega. He guides me through troubled waters. Someday I will stand on that far shore where the pain is no more and rejoice to see him welcome me home.

Struggling to Understand and Fighting My Way Forward

I haven't been able to process things for a little while. I'm still struggling to understand why I'm still in the same situation I've been in for the past seven years. I have learned a lot during this period of unemployment and underemployment. One of the most important lessons I learned is to lean on the Lord. I'm slowly learning that I need to trust him.

I am fighting my way forward utilizing the skills that I've acquired during this period. It is interesting to see how the Lord is working in my life. I do still struggle to understand why things happen. Just today I experienced a trauma that will mark my life. Yet I can say with certainty that the Lord is with me. I know I would have freaked out if the trauma happened five years ago. I can be thankful for the support of my family and friends.

I praise the Lord for bringing the right people to help me. I did panic a little when it first happened. I wasn't sure who to call. I frantically called some people and finally got someone to help. I do feel a lot calmer.

I stop to think about what's happening in this country. I realize that the Lord is working it out. He placed the right people in the right positions. I don't have to stress for the truth will come out. The Lord upholds the righteous ones. As I struggle to understand everything and fight my way forward, I trust the Lord. He has my life in his hands.

Fighting For National Sovereignty: End of America as We Know it

Some might say that America died in November 2008. It is true that it was then that many of the things we took for granted started disappearing. It is also true that the Democratic party denounced God then. We saw the evidence of the loss of national sovereignty more clearly then as well. The concepts of globalism and embracing a global economy really didn't take off until then. We could deceive ourselves before then, thinking that it was only one sector of society that was being affected by the globalists.

Some may recall vague that some were predicting a collapse as early as the mid-1970s when the North American Trade Agreement (NAFTA) was established. You may not recall but I do all the commercials about the textile workers that lost their jobs because of NAFTA. You may also not recall the movies that focused on what happened when greedy corporations shipped jobs overseas. I do. I should have realized then but was way too young, what was happening to our country.

I often wonder what would have happened if the NAFTA agreement was rejected when it was first proposed. Would those thousands of jobs that were lost still be there? Would America not be in the position it's in now? We did lose our soul when those jobs went overseas. That is a sad but true fact. Today many jobs out there are with foreign companies that are doing business on American soil.

It is a well-known fact that globalization is a huge factor in what's currently happening in America. We lost our national identity and our national pride to the highest bidder. I admittedly did think before our current president got into office that this was it. There would be no more America. We would continue the downward spiral that the past president and all the other presidents before him had established to make us part of a new world order.

Unfortunately, some of us are only waking up to the fact that our national sovereignty is in peril. Sixteen states have wholeheartedly embraced this new world order and are eager to sacrifice their freedoms to be a part of it. If more of the states decide to join them in this endeavor, we will see the end of America as we know it. When I think about it, I do realize that we do need to fight for national sovereignty with everything we have in us. Our future depends on it.

The Forgotten Man: Abraham Lincoln

Today is Abraham Lincoln's 210th birthday. You might not have known it though because it was deemed that his life isn't worth celebrating anymore. Martin Luther King Jr. is celebrated more than Abraham Lincoln. His birthday is a National Holiday. When I think about all that Abraham Lincoln accomplished during his presidency, I get upset that no one seems to care anymore. He is, except for a few states, most notably his home state of Illinois, a forgotten man. It just doesn't seem right somehow that we dropped the Lincoln's Birthday National Holiday to combine it with all the other presidents. We really don't even celebrate the birthday of our first president, George Washington!

Yes, I do believe in civil rights. I also have a good understanding of all Martin Luther King Jr. did. I can't help thinking however that things might have gone differently if Abraham Lincoln hadn't done what he did to free the slaves. His strong leadership was the only thing that made a difference. He wasn't able to finish what he started, cut down as he was by an assassin's bullet. Abraham Lincoln set the stage for Martin Luther King Jr. and many others before him. It does seem a shame that for most of the country he is a forgotten man.

I guess I shouldn't be too surprised. Many people don't even know the father of our country anymore. Those who should be teaching this have managed to water down the significance of what George Washington and our founding fathers have done. I know that many are trying to downplay American history so it will be easier to accept a new world government. Yet, there is some light. God has not given up on America. God has seen us through many trials. Lord, help us remember and embrace the good that our country has wrought on its shores.

Learning From History: A Reluctant Global Citizen

We have learned from history that socialism sucks the life out of a nation. We've experienced this soul "sucking" this past week when the President basically acknowledged that he had no choice but to reopen the government. The socialists won a great victory. America as we know it is on its last legs. Some will tell me that there is hope. America can pull itself out of the morass and stand on its own. I want to believe that.

The 2016 election had given me some hope that we wouldn't be sucked in completely with the one world government currently being secretly formed. I don't know now if it is even possible to save the United States of America as a separate, sovereign nation. The global community is just too strong and unwilling to let us go. You hear it everywhere. There is no America, no real United States anymore. There is only the global community that sucks the lifeblood out of individuals.

No, it's not like Hitler's Germany. Some would like to suggest that it is. The left especially seems to want to paint our current status as a nation as backward. They are pushing hard to indoctrinate young people to embrace the new world order. Young people are vulnerable and highly teachable to this doctrine of global unity.

I am a reluctant global citizen. I didn't ask to be assigned to struggle to find meaningful work while trying to maintain my moral core. I didn't want to have to compete with a global workforce to find work. I am not comfortable with having to defend my faith against those who would use it as a battering ram. I weep when I see those that are barely getting by because there are just too many of us to support.

I admit that I'm not looking forward to the future of this country as it succumbs to the strong forces that are threatening to dissolve it. Yes, I know that God is in control. Yet I also know that this country has abandoned God. We are being foolish if we think that God won't take his hand away from us. God is a just God. He will, however, make a way for his people. I have to believe that or wallow in despair. He has been with me through this dark tunnel and he will guide me home.

Feeling The Affects of a Government Shutdown

If someone told me that I would be affected by a government shutdown, I might not have believed them. The government has shut down before now. I know that it has done it too frequently lately but it hasn't really affected me until now.

You may ask how it has affected me. The fact is that government shutdowns affect government services. Some of those services directly affect my quality of life. For instance, processing benefits have slowed considerably. There is also a concern that some benefits won't be processed at all due to the shutdown. I am affected when I know that those benefits are desperately needed. I don't know and can't speculate what will happen if those benefits aren't processed. The Lord knows what I need.

I am affected when I hear about the strife happening around me. I don't want to get into it but can't help but be drawn into it. I try not to focus on my own selfish needs here. It isn't productive to dwell on those needs. Yet I do feel stuck wondering what I can do to ease the tension and meet the needs of the people around me. I pray for peace.

There are some lessons to be learned here. We can wallow in despair feeling that everyone is against you or we can take courage and move forward. We can't compromise, even when it hurts. Compassion has to be tempered with common sense.

It has been hard to watch the mainstream media's take and the congress's take on the current situation. I'm trying to have an open mind on why this is happening now. I'm also trying to look at both sides and find the logical explanation for the shutdown. Congress is not giving any logical reasons why they won't allow those funds to be dispersed. Frankly, it has become terribly expensive and frustrating to listen to the "talk" and not see any action.

Another Year Starting Over and Moving On

The holidays are now gone. I can't say how they went for me. I did put up a small tree and took it down today. I also got some closure from the loss I've been feeling. I am glad that my parents are not living now. I know that's strange to say. Yet it is also freeing because I know where they are.

Older senior citizens are going to be and have been affected by the many changes going on in this world. They are less adaptable to them. I do know that they wouldn't have lasted long under the tremendous pressure being exerted by government and private industry to conform.

As I reflect and mull over the distressing news I heard from all corners, a still small voice echoes that God is in control. This season of life that I'm still in the midst of has taught me to trust him for all things. It is a daily lesson. He has richly provided for me. He knows my needs. I shouldn't worry about anything.

The new year is a perfect time to start over. One of the lessons I'm learning is to focus and pray about God's will in my life. I don't want to go back to the selfish way of life I had. It isn't all about me. I am moving on from a selfish and anxious way of life. I can share the love God has lavished on me. I don't have to mourn and carry on for a way of life that is now gone. I can't cling to the past anymore but I can use the lessons I learned to create a pathway to the future.

The world wants to think that they control me. In some ways, it may seem to be true. It is very easy to manipulate data to make it seem that something happened when it didn't. It is hard to believe anything anymore. Yet I do believe. I believe in Jesus Christ and the redemption I have in him. He is my anchor in this storm that I'm going through and he will see me through it.

Step by step I move forward into his perfect will. I am not afraid to start over and move on now. I know that the Lord is with me every step of the way.