Struggling to Understand and Fighting My Way Forward

I haven't been able to process things for a little while. I'm still struggling to understand why I'm still in the same situation I've been in for the past seven years. I have learned a lot during this period of unemployment and underemployment. One of the most important lessons I learned is to lean on the Lord. I'm slowly learning that I need to trust him.

I am fighting my way forward utilizing the skills that I've acquired during this period. It is interesting to see how the Lord is working in my life. I do still struggle to understand why things happen. Just today I experienced a trauma that will mark my life. Yet I can say with certainty that the Lord is with me. I know I would have freaked out if the trauma happened five years ago. I can be thankful for the support of my family and friends.

I praise the Lord for bringing the right people to help me. I did panic a little when it first happened. I wasn't sure who to call. I frantically called some people and finally got someone to help. I do feel a lot calmer.

I stop to think about what's happening in this country. I realize that the Lord is working it out. He placed the right people in the right positions. I don't have to stress for the truth will come out. The Lord upholds the righteous ones. As I struggle to understand everything and fight my way forward, I trust the Lord. He has my life in his hands.