Stepping Forward in Faith

This week has been a little overwhelming. You all know my struggles, at least those that I've made public...that is. I have learned that I really need to step forward in faith. It is scary. I don't have the support system I had before. I do have friends and family that have really stepped up. Yet I still struggle. I know I should trust God and I do. Sometimes life gets overwhelming as I try to process everything.

I am learning to focus on what matters to me. I am learning to lean on God, knowing that he loves me. I am learning to let go and dream. It has been difficult to remain positive and step forward in faith. It's not impossible. I have been thinking about my dream job lately, trying to visualize what it would entail. I think I'd like to be archivist, but it seems like an impossible goal. I like what the archivist does in researching and documenting history.

History is so important. Our history is what defines us. It gives us our identity. As I step forward in faith and wait on the Lord's leading, I am reminded that he has the perfect plan and purpose for me. I don't feel selfish to wish for his plan to move forward. There is so much that I have learned and that I am still learning.

People talk about history disappearing. I've also heard that history is often rewritten to reflect distorted images of truth. I believe that truth always pushes through. It is never hidden. When I feel stuck and overwhelmed by the tasks that need to be done, I pray for calmness and release. I know that I'm not alone. I do thank God that he holds me in his hands so that I can step forward in faith knowing that he will hold me up.