Finding Beauty in the Ashes/On the Way Back from Oblivion

I don't recall a time when I really felt together. It has been a long hard road for me. I feel so tired at times that I can hardly keep my eyes open. Will I ever find that happiness? I just don't know. It is clear that there has to be some light at the end of this tunnel. I can see it but dimly now. I struggle as I pull myself up from oblivion.

There is some beauty in the ashes. I catch glimpses of it as I search for meaning. Lord, I admit that I don't know even where my next step will be. I don't know what to do. Look for the positive they say. I hear them. My mind tries to process the information. I feel frustrated and so alone. Where is the light?

I see glimmers of light and dark. My situation isn't as dire as I thought. Daylight is breaking through the darkness. Yet here I sit contemplating the darkness. I marvel that the Lord Jesus would embrace the darkness for me. He knows me. He snatches me from oblivion and sets my feet on solid ground. I begin to understand the sacrifice. He finds beauty in ashes.

It seems appropriate during Holy Week to reflect our purpose. Jesus has a purpose. His purpose is to save mankind. It is good to contemplate this sacrifice and embrace the meaning of Easter. We do find our purpose in Christ Jesus. He gives us a mission to spread the Good News. You can be saved. You can find your way out of oblivion. I have to believe this. I do have a purpose and there is meaning in my life.