Going through the motions-Holiday Time

Lately I have been feeling like I'm going through the motions of being in control. I know that I can't always be "on" but sometimes it's very hard not to give in to that pressure of always being "on" for others. I do struggle greatly with health issues, both mental and physical. I know my family and friends mean well. I just sometimes feel wrung out. I can't continue to pretend that everything is okay. I realize it isn't.

Some things will change in the coming year. I know this too. Maybe I will have to hurt someone's feelings in order to help them grow. Maybe someone will have to hurt my feelings in order for me to grow. I can't let others push me around though. I have to remain focused.

When I think about this time of year I think about what I've tried to accomplish in the past year. My plans have gone "south" for a time. Yet I do have people behind me that are willing to help. My greatest challenge will be to let them. I know that I can be a bit opinionated at times. I know I've got things wrong many times. I know that sometimes going through the motions is the only way I can function without stressing out.

I can do this. I know I can. Holidays are stressful when your mindset is that you have to get something for someone "just because." I need to change my mindset. What can I do to help others succeed? What can my organization do to revitalize and restore our communities to their former glory? Maybe nothing....