Feeling Determined To Find Something

If you have been reading and following this blog for a while, you have a glimpse of my current financial situation. You understand that I am only one of many who are finding themselves adrift in a sea of broken dreams. I am, however, feeling determined to find something within the next two weeks. I already had three interviews in the past three weeks...which it actually more than I've had in the past three years.

I am telling everyone that I'm a freelance writer. I am telling everyone that I'm not giving up on looking for sustainable work. I'll do that even if I have to apply for welfare. I am determined not to stay in this state. I will utilize (if I get it) welfare as a last resort. I am determined to find that steady income stream. I know that my work as a freelance writer is not steady.

I need that steady income stream. At this point in time, I may be forced to do some things that I'm not really capable of doing. I try not to think of what this means. I just have to do what I need to do.

I pray daily for direction from the Lord. I know that he controls my destiny. He knows my situation and he is going to work things out for the good. I have to believe this or go crazy. Will he rain down blessings on me? I don't know. I hate to think of the alternatives.

I know that I need to stop "stressing out"....and start praying for a miracle. God has a good plan for me. Sometimes though it is so hard to believe this. I look at my dwindling bank account and I want to weep. I hear the unspoken words of those who depend on my support, knowing that I'm just going to have to tell them that I can't do it for a little while.

I ask myself the questions that have tortured me over this long period of underemployment. Am I good enough to get noticed? Can I do the hard work needed to promote myself? Will anyone pay me to do work for them? Where will I find enough money to support myself and my family now?

I am determined to find something rather quickly. I have two weeks...actually less than two weeks before the "bottom" drops out. If you think of me at all....would you please pray that I find a job in the next two weeks...I don't want to be homeless.