Swimming in Deep Waters-Trying to keep my head above water

The new job is not working out at all. I should have got the message when the person who hired me kept asking if I still wanted to pursue it or not. I didn't. I thought at first it was only because I've been away from the job market for so long. I know now that it really isn't that. I feel like I'm swimming in deep waters here. I know I desperately need this job, which is the only reason I took it in the first place. Yet now, I'm seriously thinking that I made a grave error. It's hard to keep your head above water when you see no place of refuge in sight.

I don't like my co-workers because they make me feel nervous and small. I hate their choice of music which wears, distracts and disgusts me at times. I don't know why I'm there. They don't seem to need me as much as they complain about having no time off. I don't think I should be feeling that I really want to leave and get another job this early "in the game" but I do.

I can't even think about Christmas....and sadly enough I'll be glad to have the two days off we'll have next week even though I won't get paid for it. I tell myself that this is only temporary....and prayerfully some job that is way better suited for my talents and abilities will come along very soon. I just don't know what I'll do if it doesn't. The way I'm feeling now, I don't think I'll last here until the new year. It's that bad. So how did I get into this situation? The way most have....through no fault of their own...and desperation.

Desperation jobs sometimes work....I was desperate the last time I was unemployed....and I met a good boss who really supported me...and other good friends. This time, however, I don't see that happening because I think I managed to alienate everyone.

I need guidance and help to get me out of this difficult situation. It will take a miracle...and I don't know if I can believe in miracles.