Finding Time to Write and Think

I got a temporary job. It is mostly staring at a screen and inputting numbers. I like the fact that I will be getting some much-needed funds. I know that it is not sustainable for the long term. I do need something more sustainable. I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow.

Finding time to write has been a challenge for me. The work I'm doing is mindless, but I find I do have to concentrate.

I started this blog last week when I had the temporary job. The work is now finished, not to my satisfaction but they haven't called me back to finish it. It is a good thing. I tell myself. My mother is not doing well. She had gotten used to having me around. I don't know what the future holds. I just know that I can't do what she wants me to do. My financial situation doesn't allow me to be there. I do need to have sustainable employment. Making her understand this is hard.

I realize that I do have some choices to make. I can trust God. I can lean on his strength and wisdom. I can let go of the fear that seems to override any reason. I can leave the situation that I'm in with God knowing that he has my best interests at heart. It's not easy. I'm not looking at any easy solutions no matter what I chose. Sometimes I do wish there were some easy solutions available. Then I guess I would wonder why it was so easy and lose my faith.

I do have a lot to be thankful for. I have shelter, food and internet access. :-)

I also have good friends who care about me.