Week Three-The Pity Party

It has been a particularly rough week for me. There have been some days when I felt so useless and depressed that I couldn't function. Anyone who tells you that welfare recipients are lazy or that they should just "get a job"...isn't living in the real world. The older generation, those born in the 1930s, 1940s and early 1950s, just don't have any concept of how difficult it is to find work. Some have no clue about the intense competition or the stigma that hangs on someone like me.

It is laughable in a way. I am struggling in this deep dark financial pit. Yes, I am having a pity party. I get angry when I hear old folks complain that they had it a lot tougher....or tell you to get a job...like it was easy to do. It's not.

There's a very good reason. Everything is online. Some companies even expect you to expose your SSN before considering you for a job. I've made that mistake a couple of times recently and I could "kick" myself for doing it. I am very stubborn about giving my SSN online, so these were paper files...but it still felt wrong. I wondered what ever happened to trust? Why would anyone need to run a credit check on you? It seems to me that we should go back to the way it was before...and only give that highly sensitive information on a W2 or W9 form when we're hired for the job.

I am realizing that it isn't easy for anyone. The media can whitewash it all they want...say that things are getting better...hope that everyone goes back into a coma...but it isn't going to happen. There are a lot of angry and frustrated people out there that are literally screaming for sustainable and supportive work that pays a steady income. I am one of them. I admit it. I am angry, frightened and weary with the whole situation.

I need help, but I don't know where to turn. It seems like everyone around me is going through the same things that I am. Everyone is struggling financially...and it isn't pretty. I pray for guidance and a sense of peace as I move forward.

I will stop this pity party and hope that within the next week or so, I will have sustainable income.