I have to admit that it hasn't been easy pretending to be someone I'm not. I can't seem to get past the fact that my temperament is basically shy. I want those new things though. I see the obstacles ahead of me. People pulling me in all sorts of directions. I feel dizzy.
I try to admit that I can no longer pretend to the people around me. They laugh it off. I feel foolish to know what to strive for with those new things. I can't articulate what I want. I'm in a bubble created by my own stubborness. Will I ever get past this feeling of hopeless and poverty?
I think about those people struggling now to survive in an increasingly technical world. I long to embrace the old...to go back to when everyone who needed a job could get one. A time when everyone knew your name and wanted to help you.
We have become too insulated from each other, even as we strive for new things. Forget the old, they whisper. It is no longer relevant. You have to do it this way. You can't do it that way. Don't embrace the old....give it up. They throw God in the backwater and forget that he created everything. Fools and hypocrites....believing that things will always be there...
What will be our future? With all our striving for new things, will we forget God? We are fools and worthy of his punishment if we forget him and his infinite grace towards us, his bond servants. I have to stop pretending to be someone I'm not. I have to start letting my light shine.
Lord, thank you for your creation. Thank you for your mercy. We are infinitely better with you than without you in our lives. You promised to make all things new. How we long for that day! We do embrace your eternal love for us that may seem ancient and old. Your mercy and grace is new every morning.
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