Stuck between two extremes

I've grown frustrated lately with all the barriers I have in regards to getting work. It is not easy to discipline yourself to make those calls, write that resume and compose that letter. Some days it seems impossible. I am stuck between two extremes....the longing for a normal 9 to 5 stable job that will support me and the reality that those jobs are disappearing fast. It hasn't been by choice that I ventured into the world of self-employment. I struggled for a long time...too long to play the game of finding that elusive job...that I just decided to stop. Yes, some would say that I've given up.

I am again being pressured to find some way to get money in. For my parents and those of the older generations, that means going to work every day and putting in my eight hours with a promise that I would in the end be able to retire with a nest egg. Yes, I do know that I need to support myself better. I can work as hard as I can on the computer, trying in vain to reach out to voiceless computers that evaluate you on a set series of keywords or I can reach out to others the old fashioned way.

I can admit that going back to a time where there was no computers sounds very appealing to me at times. Technology has taken a lot of work away from hard working people...and has made life better for some of those same people. It is ironic that there are good things happening with computers even when those very same things destroy the uniqueness of a person.

Even our healthcare is being regulated by computers....for those of you who follow End Times prophecy...they know what this means.