A time of reflection and hope

I passed my 2nd year anniversary last Monday. You probably think it's weird to reflect and remember a site's closing, but I do. Like many of you, my life has changed in some significant ways when I heard the news about the markets that cold October day in 2008. I believe that news did impact what happened to me in February 2009. You see it wasn't just me that was affected. I had 2 people under me that were summarily let go. Fortunately or unfortunately I wasn't. Yet the site still closed, and the work that I did there ceased. Ever since I've been floundering and floating. Some say I should be grateful to have a job, and I am. Yet I still miss the solid feeling I had and the sense of accomplishment I felt for a job well done.

I have been going through a tough time dealing with the mammoth changes going on within my company. It seems as if they want to anger their employees, making changes that rip what was good out and put what is not so good in. Why? I don't know. Maybe it all goes back to what happened that dreary and cold October day when I felt my world collapse around me.

There is hope. I have to tell myself this or go crazy. I see that hope when I look in the faces of my employees. I have six now, but am not sure how long I'll have them. I feel I need to fight for them while I still have them, and help them if I can.