Stepping Out and Moving Forward

It's been a little while since I last posted here. There have been some changes to the site which I don't know if I like or not. It does seem a bit strange to be typing in this space but I think I will get used to it.

I am stepping out and moving forward from the depressive pit that I've found myself in. I don't want to dwell there anymore. I am shaking off the feelings that have weighed me down. There is some daylight now. I can see it.

Wallowing in self pity is counterproductive. Yet there are still times when I feel that nothing is going right. I want to wallow then. I need to move forward and embrace the new life the Lord is giving me. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself.

I want to feel excited about this time of year...yet I know too many who struggle. They don't have loved ones that visit them or take them gifts. They feel all alone. Yet they are not alone.

Still Fighting-A Republic Saved

Everyone who has been following the culmination of the 2016 election knows who won. As I wrote last week as I was waiting for the election results, I knew that God placed Donald Trump in this position. We may not understand everything that happened to make this a reality. Some riots and protests have occurred since the election.

The globalists are up in arms about the results. They are making it seem that Trump stole the election. He didn't. The people spoke. The electoral college worked. I do have a very clear picture now about why we still need the electoral college with elections. An electoral college assures that every voice is heard whether it be in some small town in Nebraska or a big city like New York.

He does have a huge amount of work to do. He is still fighting the liberals who want to bring the country to chaos. Does he have problems? There is no denying this. Has the media portrayed Trump supporters as haters? Yes. I understand this all too well. Do they understand that the only reason many people voted for Trump was that he promised to take back our country from the globalist forces that were threatening to tear it apart? No. They are all good global citizens.

The evidence is all around us that they just don't care about their country at all. They have been indoctrinated in the drone mentality that says "the global union will take care of you." It seems nice to have that openness and connectivity...yet there is a price. That price is our national sovereignty.

A presidency under such a liberal person would mean the death knell for America. I do believe that with all my heart. We need to be able to teach young people that freedom is precious and has been fought for with blood, sweat and tears. We need to be able to persuade people to turn back to God. We have strayed too long and accepted too much.

Will we be persecuted for our beliefs? Yes. This will happen. It is already happening. I tell myself daily that God is in control. He knows what's going to happen today, tomorrow and in the future. We just have to trust him.

"A Republic-If You Can Keep it..."

I sit here anxiously waiting for the results of the 2016 Presidential election. An election that many are saying could change America forever. I know what everyone is saying about the two candidates that are running for this office. They are both corrupt in their own ways. Each will have to answer to God for their sins.

I do feel that God does have a hand in this election. I know that he has forgiven and is using Donald Trump to expose the corruption in the government. He has also exposed the rapid encroachment of globalism in America on the economy. I don't believe that he (if he is elected) will be able to quickly detach the USA from the global union. It is much too strong a force for any one man or woman.

The burning question that comes to my mind as I read and watch what's happening is whether or not we will continue on the path of one world government. In the End Times, a world government is set up with an economic system and a social system that everyone must adhere to or die.

The technology for this global union is already in place. Forces are pushing people to reject cash payments and accept only electronic payments. I see this happening with my own eyes. I saw the result with the library situation I discussed last week. In much the same way libraries are getting rid of the repositories and blocking people from getting information.

They give the excuse that "everything is on the Internet" and that no one wants to read or study a physical book anymore. Even with this election, it is all electronic. Who really knows what's going on? You try to make sense of it all. You wonder about all the things you see and the propaganda that flies around everywhere.

I do believe that America is at a crossroads. The erosion of our rights as citizens in a free country is increasing at an alarming rate. No one seems to understand Ben Franklin's admonition when he spoke his famous words of " a republic, if you can keep it.." in reply to someone who had concerns about the establishment of the new government.

When you look at things from a purely globalist view, then things are moving along at a quick pace and opportunities abound. For a globalist like Hillary Clinton, there really is no America. We are members of a global union. Big corporations that have their headquarters overseas embrace the globalist agenda. In fact they are all for the trade agreements that curtail American industry and make us part of a global union.

Globalization is happening. The people that are talking about the dissolution of the USA are right. We will be a small part of global union...the North American branch along with Canada and Mexico. We will be joined by South America. This is already happening. There are plans in the works to consolidate countries into bigger entities.

The globalist will tell you that this is a good thing. They will convince you that the over two hundred year American experiment has failed. They will deride you for believing in God and his son Jesus Christ. You will be martyred for this belief. It is happening here. It will continue if the globalist agenda is embraced.

Down With The Masses and Figuring Out Next Steps

It's been a little while since I last wrote this blog. I have been busy working on an issue that is very important to me. I never suspected that this would come to a head like it has. It feels like I'm swimming upstream with the fishes. You might be saying to yourself right about now, "What is she saying? She is not making any sense."

Frankly I'll agree with you because what my local library is planning to do doesn't really make a whole lot of sense. I have to admit that I do have a clearer understanding of the situation today than I have had for a little while. I understand the need for space and the desire for new books. I truly do.

Yet when I first heard that the library was planning to get rid of half their collection, I kind of freaked out. I wrote some things that were untrue, but I didn't know they were untrue at the time. I just can't help thinking that if they communicated a little better then I wouldn't have felt it necessary to say anything.

I'm still straining to wrap my mind around some things that were said. I want to be down with the masses of people that will use this library in the future. I want them to feel that the information they are getting from the library is relevant to them. At the same time I don't want them to lose their heritage which I feel will be lost if they have no access to reference material in a physical sense.

My stomach twists because I feel that the "powers-to-be" don't understand the relevance of having a viable non-fiction and reference section. I'm still figuring out next steps. I can't save all these books from being destroyed just because they are old and seemingly have no value. However I can in my own way open their eyes to the masses who utilize this library frequently and deserve to have some say in what happens to it.

That's not to say that I'm against new books. I welcome new books. Frankly if they said that they would replace the older reference books with newer ones, then I would accept the purging of half the collection. They didn't. So I save as many books as I can from the dumpster.

Am I crazy for doing this? Maybe....but what is the alternative? Do we allow this to happen without a voicing our opposition to the plan? My thoughts are all in a jumble now. I do have a lot to think about and I may not get the opportunity to voice my concerns at all. That is a very real possibility...or they may just change the venue without letting anyone know about it. That would be bad...:-(

Feeling Lost and Down-Election Blues

I'm feeling lost. It's not surprising that I should feel this way. Both sides of the election are painting grim pictures of the other side. I don't know where to turn. It is hard to listen to all the garbage that is being put out there.

I can't decide. I'm being made to feel like a pariah for my indecision. I understand the importance of this election. I do. I've been living with the consequences of eight years of bad government and the turning away from God. I've been threatened because of my strong faith in God. I know that part of the reason why I'm still in this situation is because the government has turned its collective back on God and has embraced the sins of homosexuality and depravity.

I am glad that I don't have kids. I see the struggles they have and know that their rights are being systematically destroyed by those who dictate what they see, read and hear. Some of my contemporaries say that this "caged bird" syndrome is all young people know. They are trapped in an electronic prison unable and unwilling to make choices on their own.

I'm feeling blue about all the violence, backbiting and downright lies that are swirling around in the air because of this election. At times I do fear that there will be a revolution. I often wonder if this is how they felt in the 1760s when the British tried to strictly govern them. They didn't have a voice then. We don't realize just how lucky we are to have that voice. Yet I fear that it is being taken away. I am concerned about the "body count" attributed to Clinton. It just doesn't make any sense.

I have to keep reminding myself daily that God is in control.

Don't Know How To Feel-Just Hanging On

Things are starting to gel a little bit from last week. I am feeling a bit better about what's going on. I still don't know how to feel about what I heard about the library last week. I am just hanging on to hope.

I know our country is in bad shape. I understand the hate that swirls around each candidate like a wreath. I want to do something but I'm not sure what that is. I embrace the little bits of joy that filter through the darkness. I keep my head up striving for mastery. Will I survive this "train wreck" of an election? Who knows?

All I know for sure is that God is in control. I saw him in the wreckage of an old historical church on Saturday. His form remained pure when all around him there was broken glass.

The pressure is tremendous to cast a vote. They tell you that if you don't that you're throwing it all away. I don't know how to feel about that. I feel that obligation and duty to vote. Yet there is no one I feel good about voting for. I am just hanging on hoping for a ray of light to penetrate this darkness.

I stand fast against the darkness. I do see a tiny bit of light at the end of this long dark tunnel. I feel hopeful about the direction I'm taking here. God will bless me. He has blessed me with so many opportunities to serve him. I'm grateful to be alive.

Lord will guide me. I just have to trust him.

Bogged Down and Stressed Out-Fighting Fears

Another strange title but it is how I'm feeling right now as I unsuccessfully tried to promote a baking contest. I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't have the right contacts that would be enthused enough to promote it. I just don't know what I was thinking when I proposed it.

I am feeling bogged down by all the responsibilities that have been laid at my feet. I am stressed out by trying to make myself heard. I am fighting fears and feeling sick over the devastation and future devastation from Hurricane Matthew.

I know I'm not alone. Even though sometimes it feels that way. I have been going through a lot lately. The latest shock was what the Collingdale library plans to do with all their non-fiction and reference books. I just felt sick. Why? Why would you throw away 22,000 books!!!! It is so crazy that I still have difficulty wrapping my mind around it.

Yes, it does seem like the government is trying to get rid of history this way. Throwing away old and relevant books and expecting everyone to rely on the Internet for information is crazy. I do admittedly take information from the Internet for my work. Yet I would love to have the opportunity to check out some old reference books to confirm my information. It's getting too hard now. They don't want to you to know the truth.

I am bogged down by the weight of oppression. When will it all end? My dad keeps hoping that Jesus will come soon. I do too. This world is not mine own.