Going Back to The Basics: Moving Away From the New Technology

 After last week's frustrating trial of trying to find a way to go back to legacy Blogger, I found out that there was no point in going back. All the algorithms that ran the legacy Blogger are gone. I decided that I am going to take a hiatus from Blogger and from Facebook for a little while. I may go to the WordPress blog I set up a while back to do some writing.

I do want to go back to the basics and move away from this new technology. I don't know if I'll be able to do it. The new technology practically runs everything and it is so damn easy to manipulate it. I feel sorry for my grand niece and nephew as they will never know a world without this intrusive technology. I know that their mother (my niece) has tried unsuccessfully to limit her time on social media and with the new technology. Yet it hasn't been easy. I know that she sometimes longs for a simple life with natural foods and no chemicals.

Her problem, and unfortunately it is many of her contemporaries' problem as well, is that she is more integrated with all the new technology than those of us that can remember when things were more manual. It really wasn't all that long ago, yet for people in the age bracket of between 30 and 40 years, this is their life. They would not be used to using a typewriter or a manual telephone. For her, the Smartphone is now her life. It is sad but true.

I do feel that I need to stick with the old school "stuff" like writing checks, using cash instead of using electronic means to transfer money. I also feel that I need to do what I can to make people aware that there are still people out there that don't go on the Internet, feel no need to keep up with celebrities and want nothing more than to live life as it should be lived.

Maybe I'm a fool for wanting to go back to the basics and move away from the new technology. Yet I really can't continue to put myself on the fence with one foot stuck in the beloved past and one foot in the scary and overpowering future. I tell myself that I'm fighting for those who don't have a voice. I stand in the gap of those who don't want to be sucked into a dystopian world. New technology can be good, but it also leaves a lot of people in the lurch.

The Change is Complete: No Way to Go Back to Normal

 I do hate this new format, but have no resource to not use it. I have had to zoom my screen to 80% just to see the whole screen. I do think that it won't be too long before Facebook will take the same stance. I hate having to zoom my screen.

I also believe that this means that I may no longer be comfortable enough to continue to write blogs. I have decided to take a hiatus from Facebook for two months. I'm waiting to see if after the hiatus I'll still be able to get back into Facebook.

At this time I really don't know what I'll do. I think a lot of what is going to happen will determine whether or not if I do have issues with Facebook, that I'll go back onto Facebook. The changes in both Blogger and Facebook are frustrating and unnecessary. I read that it isn't just me that hates the new formats. Everyone is getting frustrated.

Some may say that these changes are set to control what is being written. Some suggest that people that talk against the New World Order will automatically be blocked. The new changes make it easier to control data.

A Movement For Repentance-Two Big Events Happening in Washington DC

Way back in April while writing the "In The Midst of A Storm" blog series, one of my biggest concerns was the lack of repentance. I felt and in some ways still feel that the exclusion of physical services has changed the church's direction. For some churches more people have come in to the church, but they are receiving the wrong message. I know what some of you are going to say right now, and believe me I've heard it many times. The messengers mean well...yet I still get the impression that they just don't get my concern over having everything online.

I admittedly like the convenience of being able to pull up a sermon, sit in a comfy chair and listen to the message. I also admit that it is all too easy to remain complacent and ignore what's going on around you when you immersed yourself with soothing words. We have allowed our country and the world "go to pot" around us, because it is too "damn" easy to manipulate the message now. Some of us are starting to wake up and realize that we need to repent from our complacency. We are all seeing the ugly results of that complacency on our computer and television screens.

There are two events going on in Washington DC on September 26th. The first one aptly named "The Return" is what I call a preparation for the Lord's soon coming. The fasting and prayer event starts appropriately on what the Jewish faith celebrates as the "Feast of Trumpets" which is this Friday, September 18th and runs through to Monday, September 28th, which is the "Day of Atonement" on the Jewish calendar. I watched the video which you can see on The Return website. I recommend you listen to the whole video and make up your own mind. Their central day is Saturday, September 26th where they will meet at the National Mall in Washington DC. The second event is the "Prayer March 2020" which will be meeting at the Lincoln Memorial and marching to the US Capitol. You can see the route here: Prayer March 2020. Both events are emphasizing the need for us as a nation to repent. I won't be able to make either one, but will be praying anyway for our nation's repentance. 

Dealing With Changes: Seeking Light in a Dark World

Blogger did it again. They changed it to the new setting, but thankfully I was able to switch it back to the legacy setting. Facebook is doing the same thing. They seem to think that bigger screens are better, but since I work on a small screen those big screens really "mess" things up. Yes, I do know that some day soon I won't have the option to switch back to the legacy screens. It is really frustrating though because I can't get the whole screen and have to keep reducing resolution in order to get all the buttons I need to function...sigh.

I am doing better with accepting some changes. I have been working on a few ways to get some money in house without compromising my personal information. I haven't had much luck. Many of the ways I've researched require equipment I don't have or think that you are an internet shopaholic. Sigh... I am dealing with the changes I've been forced to make as best I can.

I am grateful for this platform. It helps me to seek light in a dark world when I can concentrate on God's word. It also helps me when I get rid of the "poor me" attitude that I've been dragging around for far too long. It isn't fair, and is probably a large part of why I'm still in the financial situation I've been in for a very long time. I have been blessed by family and friends who have helped me survive, but I'm looking to thrive and grow.

Changes can be good. This dark world tends to put a dark shadow on change. It distorts change when you really just want to see that light and the stability it brings. I admittedly have never really adapted to change well. There have only been a few times that I welcomed changes. I would gladly forfeit the radical changes that have taken place over this past five months. I long for stability. I find my stability in the Lord and in his word.

I think we are all still adjusting in some ways. I still pray every night that the masks will go away and everyone will pull off their masks. I also pray that God intervenes and the vaccine will go away...and that the President will forget that he ever suggested using the military to enforce the vaccine on people. Yes, I do remember hearing this, and his recent actions have sent a chill up my spine. I admit that I really don't know what I'm going to do. I am still seeking light in this dark world.

It is hard to trust God. I admit that. Yet he has proven time and time again that he is trustworthy. I don't have to worry as I deal with changes. He is the Light of the World.

Choosing Joy-Stepping Out of The Chaos

We've all experienced it. Some of us have experienced it in a stronger "dose" than others. We tell ourselves that real joy isn't possible. We start to believe the lies all around us. You know the ones I'm talking about here. The lies that tell you that you must embrace the chaos, that insist that you are the crazy one for not giving in to the fear and doubt, that tell you that you are unworthy and not important. Yes, joy is a choice...but it is also a realization that God has created you to honor him.

Joy doesn't come naturally. It is not automatic. It comes from knowing God and accepting him. The devil would have you believe that you can buy joy. He would have you grasp for the temporary while losing the eternal. Yes, I can relate a little bit to what many are feeling. We can't see the joy because we're focused on the temporary instead of the eternal. It is understandable. God is invisible in our physical world. Yet he lives.

You do choose because God grants us free will. You can choose to live in the chaos or embrace what God has in store for you. I know it's hard. Please believe me. Some days it feels like you've been through the wash cycle. Other days you may catch a tiny glimpse of the eternal joy you can have in Christ Jesus.

I chose to step out of the chaos. I don't want my life dictated by the actions of others, or to wallow in the pit of despair any longer. I am choosing joy. I want to serve the Lord in any way I can. Yes, it is scary to commit yourself to God. I admit that I've felt scared to move forward and commit to anything. It is foolish though to hang onto things or people. When we choose joy we choose to trust God in all things. The Lord is not the Lord of Chaos. He is perfect and eternally good. He creates order and completeness.

Dealing with Change while Moving Forward

This year has been an rapidly changing situation for me. I've had to deal with the loss of stability that I've had since I was born. There are many things that I'm still struggling to cope with right now. There are other things that I'm still fighting to keep from disappearing all together. Some days I admittedly feel lost. Other days I find something to hold onto that reminds me that there still is some link to the past.

I know that I am not as I was when I was a teenager and a young adult. Even though I had some love for history back then, I looked forward to a future that promised good things. I tried not to think about the bad things that some scientists were predicting. Instead I focused more on the positive things and let my imagination run wild. I thought, wrongly, that the stability that I had would continue into the future. I thought that newer technology would open a better world for me. I was wrong.

This year from hell as some would call it when it's all said and done has taught me that nothing is stable. It also taught me that I have to stop relying on others and myself, and start relying on God for my stability. I am dealing with change while moving forward one step at a time. I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. The key element is Christ. Without him we are all lost and floundering.

I know that I can fight against the evil forces when God gives me the resources. I am seeing God at work in the hearts of those who he is calling to himself. I thank God that he is stable and unchanging in a rapidly changing world. I don't know what the future holds for me, but know that I need to be ready to fight the good fight. I can take courage as I deal with change that he is with me. I know the outcome, so I don't have to fear what Satan and his minions may do. I feel honored to be placed in this position. I can stand with the thousands of God's followers as we fight the forces of time and space that threaten to end all life.

When I contemplate the title of this blog, I realize that in some way we are time warriors fighting against those who would change time for their evil purposes. I remember that God controls time and space, and in his hands we are his instruments to do his will.

Yes, things are pretty scary right now. Change is scary, yet God is the stabilizing force that controls the universe. Everything is in his hands. I praise God for his stability and loving kindness.

Feeling A Revival Coming On: Hanging on to the Old

Hi, well last week I was automatically switched to the new Blogger format. I liked some aspects of it. The big screen was great, but had a very difficult time with the label. I switched back to the old Blogger format, and will probably stay with it until Blogger decides to automatically change it to their new format.

I am feeling a revival in my spirit that is helping me cope with all the changes. I know that I do tend to hang onto the old for far longer than I probably should be holding onto it. I don't like feeling afraid and worried about gunshots and rioting. Yet I am beginning to understand that God is revealing the evil for what it is. We have become so complacent with our thinking, and allowed those who have an evil agenda to get away with a lot of "stuff."

When I hear about what evil agenda is being brewed up to take control of us, it is then when I realize all the more that we need to wake up from our complacency. It can get frustrating, I know, when you feel like you really can't do anything. Yet I know that God is in control, and that he will revive us to serve him. I oddly enough get a bit excited when I see prophecy being fulfilled right before my eyes. Some days, admittedly, I long to see Jesus and pray that I will hear him say, "Well done, thou good and faithful servant."

Other days doubt swirls around me. I see everything changing so rapidly, and just want it to slow down. I mourn the loss of so many things that I cherish. Yes, I am guilty of hanging on to the old. I think about the 1920s and speculate what could have happened to get everyone out of the "damn" masks. I see the evidence of a church revival in the beautiful old buildings, some sadly enough are no longer churches. I do wonder what could have happened to trigger that church growth and building. I don't think that will happen this time. Looking to the past I notice a  lot of things that were prevalent during that time from 1917 to the early 1920s that are not prevalent today.

Yes, I do feel that revival coming on though. This revival will be different than the revival that happened in the early 1920s. We have abandoned God entirely, unlike during the 1920s when God was still center in most people's lives. God hasn't abandoned us. I imagine that this revival will be awesome and worldwide, and will possibly be the last great revival until the Lord comes to take us home to be with him forever. I can't predict the future though. I trust God with it.

A New Beginning with Blogger: Feeling a bit disoriented

 I wasn't expecting this rather disorienting screen when I logged in this evening. I'm not sure I like it or not. It does take a little getting used to as I type. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. There were warnings that this format was going to change way back in June. Change has always been upsetting in some ways for me. You're probably thinking right about now that we've all gone through so many life-altering changes over the past five months that this shouldn't rattle me.

Actually the more I "play" with it, the more I like it. I definitely like the new bigger screen. I also like the big new button for the labels that I usually have at the bottom of the blog. I am wondering how it will look once I publish it though. Will the whole screen change?

I know you may laugh to see my reaction to this new beginning. Any huge change takes time to get used to for me. I am having a very difficult time adjusting to what people are now calling the "new normal." Mask wearers make me feel disoriented...like I stepped into a Doctor Who episode. If you recall the episode where everyone was wearing an earpiece that controlled their thoughts, it is the same feeling that I'm getting now with these masks.

Yes, I do understand the conditioning and how manipulative mind control can be. I also understand that some people can't be manipulated due to certain processes in their minds. These masks are a form of mind control. You get enough people to go along with the mask wearing, tell those that refuse that they are crazy and create an ongoing fear factor...you get disorientation. It doesn't help that many are making it seem that mask wearing is in "vogue" or your "patriotic" duty. I can't get behind that as it leaves behind so many of us who really can't wear masks for many reasons.

I admitted here that my main reason for not wearing a mask continuously as many do, is that I have maskaphobia. It started back in March, and was barely noticeable, but increased when the mask wearing became mandatory in my state. I still have a rather mild form. I can go to the grocery store if I only have to wear the mask for a few seconds as I step in, a few minutes as I wait in line (I've clocked the time...and do notice that after a few minutes my symptoms increase) and maybe fifteen minutes at the bank. I do have to advert my eyes, so I never look directly at someone...or I do start displaying those symptoms. I have prayed, and that has helped a little.

  

God is My Refuge and An Anchor in The Midst of A Storm

I was vividly reminded today that God is my refuge. I prayed all weekend and yesterday that the expected hurricane would pass us by. It wasn't until I let go of my anxious thoughts, reminded myself that God knows what I need, and how he has held me up in times past that I relaxed. I realized that I have been holding too tightly to things that aren't stable. Some people take refuge in their work, while others take refuge in church. Please don't get me wrong church has played a significant role in providing sanctuary, but it isn't a refuge.

In today's world where we see signs daily of the Lord's coming, it is sometimes hard to focus in on what's important. All of us need an anchor right now in the midst of this storm. We also need to reach out to others to let them know that they need to get right with God. I am reminded of the song that was first played on January 1st, and has become my theme song..."Almost Home." It has taken a little while to sink in that the Lord is speaking to us through this song. He's telling us that we're almost home.

I just have to take refuge in him, realizing that it won't be that much longer before I see him. I know what some of you are going to say right now. "You can't predict his coming." No, I can't predict it but know that everything that has been written in the bible about the end times is coming to pass right before our eyes. We just need to hang onto him, and not give into those who would steal us away if they could. I know that I am anchored in him. I am not afraid to write these words. I actually hope that someone sees them, and finds their refuge in him.

In a few more months we will see the Lord work to flush out the evil that has crept in. Actually if I can believe everything I'm seeing the Lord is already at work exposing the evil. I can't predict what's going to happen in November. I trust God that he will continue to protect me and love me.

Living the Christian Life in a Socialistic Society

Okay, you may be thinking right about now that our country isn't socialistic. You may also be thinking that there is no way that Christians can live in a socialistic country. Actually you might be surprised to know that in many socialistic countries Christians are thriving. I know I was. I thought and believed that Christians were dwindling in those countries, and the stories of persecution would have had a very negative effect on Christianity's growth. Then I recalled the story of Paul's conversion when he met Jesus on the way to Damascus. He was going there to persecute the Christians there and bring them back to Jerusalem. God had other plans for Paul.

Right now we're going through some really tough times. We haven't as yet, at least now in a widely physical realm, been subject to persecution. We have, however, been subject to mental and spiritual persecution to some degree. I know that I've felt torn about what's happening here and around the world. Socialism sounds great when you think about "free" stuff and the ability to help people get needed stuff. Who doesn't want free stuff? The brand of socialism that many have been pushing for as long as I can remember has finally grown roots in people's hearts. We have been brainwashed to believe that we're "saving the planet" by allowing the government to take over. We've been labeled as uncaring when we say that we can't take these illegal aliens in.

Yet there is a growing movement beneath the surface where Christians can live. It is an underground movement that the world ignores because they feel that they have won. They haven't. It is through this time of testing that many will come to know Jesus as their savior. I see it. I don't know what will happen next with this movement, but do know that God will use this for his honor and glory. We just have to keep our eyes focused on him, and not on the world.

Rays of Hope: Promises for the Future

It is hard when all your eyes are used to is dark and grim images to see rays of hope. They are there though. Sometimes you just have to reach out for them and hold on. These past seven months have been rather difficult for me. It all started when I was called for jury duty in a murder case. Actually everyone that showed up for jury duty was called for that case, so it wasn't just me. I had a very bad reaction I remember because of my innate sensitivity to the dark images that murder brings up. Luckily, some would say, I wasn't picked for the actual trial. I think that the lawyers noticed my reaction and figured that I wouldn't be a very good juror for that case. My mind has blanked it out for the most part, so I can't even remember what day it was. I know that it was probably in January or February.

I bring that reaction up because I've had similar reactions to the lock down and the mandatory mask wearing. I tell myself when I'm in the throes of an attack that God is there. I understand now why I've been reacting as I have been over the past seven months. My core has been shaken severely as my stability has disappeared. Stability is one of my big "bulwarks" and is what I need to function normally. The loss of stability creates a "perfect" storm for me both physically and mentally. I know that you have felt this as well. It isn't surprising.

What are those rays of hope? I look around me and see them every day when I turn off the news, turn away from Facebook and just breathe. The people that smile and wave sans masks really help bring me hope. The children playing normally without masks in the field brings me peace. The beauty of a sunset that paints the sky a brilliant orange fills me with joy. The small businesses that are now opening up, and those that have stayed open encourage me that things will get better.

There are some promises for the future. I see it as people start to wake up and take back their cities and towns from the rioters. I see it in the people that are now running for office that are pushing back against the socialist and globalist agenda. Yes, we are in deep trouble. There is no denying this any longer...yet I have to believe that God won't let us go down that dark path any longer. We have to believe that God hears us, and will rescue us from the evil ones.

Are We Living in the Last Days?...Thoughts to Consider

Hi, I know you all are thinking this. Admit it. I've thought about it a lot over the past few months. I just haven't allowed it all to sink in yet. There is a lot to consider when you actually study the scripture. It is easy to get caught up in theories about what the last days will look like, and if we're prepared to face them. I have caught myself wishing that the Lord would come and "beam" me out of here many times.

It is easy, but not really safe to think like this. The reasoning is that if you focus in on the Rapture, hoping against hope that you will be one of the "raptured", you are missing the big picture. The Lord has opened my eyes to the fact that I really shouldn't be wishing to be "raptured." I should instead be praying that I can further the kingdom of God here on Earth. That is not to say that I replace the picture in my mind of heaven or that I settle for my current state here on Earth. All I am really saying is that we do have some responsibilities here to follow the Lord's leading. We don't want to get so focused on the rescue that we lose sight of the people around us.

I have talked about the great need for repentance. The thing is that most people just don't understand what that means, or they just don't want to think about it. Some feel that they are too far gone, and that they can't be saved. Young people struggle most with this concept because they don't see the reward in it. They want to feel it deep inside...yet sometimes that type of repentance takes time. It isn't instantaneous as some would have you believe.

It does help to consider the information we're receiving at a mind blowing rate. There are many things we still don't understand but are being forced to accept. I do know my own mind. I know that I have a hard time accepting things that I know are manipulating the population to their own detriment. I guess that is why I developed this mild case of maskaphobia. I see that manipulation for what it is, but can't make others see it. I can't help but weep when I hear the calls to defund the police, and the really sad state Philadelphia is now in. I admit that I am scared to go there anymore.

All the talk about businesses literally pushing electronic means of payment sickens me. I understand about how easy it could be to "tag" people and block others from basic services. Do I think that what they are promoting could be the dreaded mark of the beast? It is possible. Yet I do feel that we do have some time before they try to implement it on a worldwide basis. I hope to see some "push back" from those who refuse to use their cards or apps, and insist on paying for items with cash. 

Why I only wear a mask when I step in a store; Maskaphobia is real

I know that many of you are concerned about my health. You wonder why I take the risk of exposing myself to this virus. You may have also wondered about the effects that mask wearing has on me. I can honestly say that I have a mild case of maskaphobia. If you are wondering what maskaphobia is, the most simplistic explanation is that I have a fear of masks, specifically of people wearing masks and the act of wearing a mask myself.

It is thankfully a mild case, one that I'm very slowly working on gaining control over through prayer. I won't say it has been easy for me to see the pictures of people wearing masks on television or to encounter people on the street or in the store wearing them. I do understand the reasoning behind it, but I think that is part of the reasoning behind why I have this maskaphobia. To me the mask symbolizes fear of the virus and being oppressed.

You can try to talk me out of this fear by citing numbers that tell you that the masks are working to slow the virus down. Unfortunately at this point I just don't believe you, and that just increases the fear for me. I experience that feeling every time I put the mask on to go into the store. You can imagine that my heart races, and I get short of breath when I feel that mask cover my nose and mouth. I try to take deep breaths right before I have to put the mask on. It does help. I've gotten used to it, but still find myself pulling it down off my face after a few minutes.

I don't like the stares I get when I do that, so I try to avoid looking at people while maintaining that six feet social distance. I do find myself rushing through the store, hoping that I can avoid running into anyone at times. I also feel a deep need to say something to someone to hurry them up. I can't stand in long lines as I get too antsy and anxious. (I'm figuring that this is a definite sign of maskaphobia.) I don't like that feeling, and try my best to reign it in as much as possible. I have noticed that the people in front and behind me have been more than generous in letting me go in front of them. I've also noticed that I've been so fortunate enough to be able to get out quickly enough that my maskaphobia doesn't get too bad.

I wasn't like this before the mandatory mask wearing. I never had any issues with people wearing masks before now. I have to chalk it up to the massive changes that happened so quickly which I now associate with the mandatory masks and lock downs. Yes, it is good to admit that fear sometimes overwhelms me. Yet I do know that God forgives me for that fear, and will support me through it.

Death of America? - A Case for Freedom and Liberty

I won't really be celebrating the 4th of July this year. There are a couple of reasons. The first is that many of the states are either returning to lock down mode or have decided to put stricter measures in place. The second is that I really don't like what's happening to our country right now. Some would say that similar circumstances happened during the last pandemic over a hundred years ago. Yes, many businesses closed, and events were cancelled due to the pandemic back then. Yes, many people died any way, because the argument is they didn't cancel the events soon enough to contain the spread.

The argument falls flat when you realize that those businesses chose to close, and events weren't cancelled but were modified to adjust to the measures. There was no inference that only kept the large businesses open, leaving the small businesses to close and go out of business forever. The argument also falls when the evidence shows that churches remained open and able to assist those in need.

I realize that the disease that we're all facing is severe. There is no denying this. Yet with all these lock downs and strict measures we have abandoned our freedom. Government is now dictating who can run a business, and who can work. They are also trying to shove down our throats the threat of tracing so you can face jail time for inadvertently exposing people to the virus. Yikes! The scary part is that you have no say in the matter. Your liberty can be taken away from you in the name of "safety" and "security."

I definitely feel sorry for the police. It is their selfless efforts on our behalf that keep us safe. They get no thanks for their jobs. Without them there would actually be death of America. I will be celebrating in September, however, when our borough is supposed to have a Patriot's Day celebration. It is only when law and order is in place that the case for freedom and liberty can truly be addressed.

The Digital Divide: A Case for The Disenfranchised

I was doing some research today about why I'm having so much difficulty in finding work. I tried over the past almost nine years to find something that I could do. I found writing to be one avenue to pursue with some limited success. I also found a bunch of resources that left me feeling a bit overwhelmed. I wasn't sure what to pursue where I would have any chance of getting a decent steady job. I, like some of my contemporaries have become what some would coin as disenfranchised. We had the experience, but it wasn't in technology. We wanted to learn, but some of us were barred due to lack of resources.

I discovered it wasn't just me that was experiencing this disenfranchisement. Many older people are experiencing it as well. For some of us it is the digital divide that has rendered us obsolete and useless. The fact is that although many in our generation embrace some of the newer technology, we can't embrace it all. We see what's currently happening with everything going online, and it deeply disturbs us. This past few months should have opened people's eyes to the fact that too much is now being put online barring those who don't have internet access to normal lives.

I realized that it isn't just the older folks that are feeling the effects of this rapid shift into the digital age. There are actually a whole segment of society that has been barred from conducting normal transactions. The push is for automated servers (no worries about infection there), automatic payment (no risk of handling cash) and online shopping (no brick and mortar stores). We've all seen the barring of monetary transactions through onsite branches. Some banks even went so far as to deny people the ability to access their accounts physically. Even now some of these same banks, and those who have opened up are continuing to press people to sign up for electronic payments. It sounds "fishy" to me. It also doesn't seem right to me. Just because someone doesn't have a smartphone or mobile device, doesn't mean that they can't get money out of their account.

Forming a More Perfect Union in A Imperfect World

I took last week off from the computer. I reflected on the past three months and how the world has changed. I also set some goals for myself. When I came back online yesterday I was unpleasantly hit with the chaos that is happening all over the country. Seattle is a war zone with a new country (so they say) set up over six city blocks. In Philadelphia we have the makings of another new country (so they say) set up over on the Benjamin Franklin Parkway. I could be frightened right now about what's happening, but surprisingly I'm not.

I believe that this is all part of God's plan. He's allowing people to wallow in their own filth and create their own destruction. God said there would be consequences for wicked and perverse actions. We are seeing the results of many government officials' wicked and perverse actions. I get that some are really scared and intimidated by the mob. Yet it was only a month or so ago that the mayor and city council made some really stupid moves in regards to the police and broke laws that have been on the books for a very long time. I admittedly am very reluctant to even take a chance at going to work downtown anymore. It has become a very dangerous place.

It got me thinking too. How do we form a more perfect union in this imperfect world? Is what the founders of the United States of America said about this country even possible anymore? I've tried to make sense of what's happening, but none of it makes any sense at all. We are not really united in what we believe anymore. Our ideology has been skewered until we don't have a clue what's right or wrong. My personal research into the time of the last great pandemic is telling in that there was no anarchy or riots in the streets during that time period. In fact there was some tremendous growth, which seems strange when you look at the newspaper reports of that time period. People were dying by the thousands of the Spanish Flu. There was restrictions like the masks, but people were unified in their beliefs. They had a stronger and more solid belief in God. They believed that church was a place where people could go to be with God and learn more about him. They had a strong moral code that was able to resist the changes that were taking place back then. They believed in the United States of America. They were ready to form that more perfect union in their imperfect world.

Yes, I have to believe that God still has his hands on us. He is preparing his children right now for the coming battle. I have to believe that he will use us as he is using our President to bring the full called ones home. 

Feeling Overwhelmed and Out of Touch

Today I resolved to stop wallowing, and do something about my current situation. I figured that by taking some action I might be able to see what direction I should go. Unfortunately with the rapid changes that have happened over the past three months, I'm feeling overwhelmed and out of touch. I could basically give it all up, and start trying to apply for welfare again. I've gone that route, but was kicked off after I didn't fill out the form correctly. I have been fortunate though because God has provided for me.

I know that I do have to start moving to find at least one income stream. I also know that I have to stop being so resistant to the changes that are happening. It isn't easy. I don't like having to depend on the Internet to do everything. I don't like having to use electronic means to get things I need. It is frustrating. Yet I do want to learn to do something that will make me some money. I don't want to have to depend on the government for my sustenance.

The problem is that I'm having some difficulties deciding what free courses I should take. There are so many! I know I need some training in order to gain employment, but not sure what type of training I need. It is almost like being in a library and having to choose a favorite book. I miss the library, and the excitement of finding that perfect book.

There is going to be a lot to get used to once the libraries are open again. I fear that I probably won't be able to sit for an hour or more and read like I used to do. I fear that the books that I want to do research on will be gone. The transformation of libraries as community centers will be complete with no physical books...sigh.

I am feeling out of touch with these new digital offerings. I hate the push that some companies are taking to get everyone on line, and using electronic means of payment. I guess hate is too strong a word. Yet I resent that some companies are going out of their way not to accept physical currency. They are even encouraging kids to pick up the bad habits of their parents by using cards for purchases.

I am overwhelmed by the deterioration of our major cities, seemingly overnight as riots break out. I don't understand it, but I pray for those who are defending us against the thugs. I do wish that things would go back to where they were back in February. It is a foolish dream. Things won't be back to that normal for a very long time. My mind does have a hard time accepting this. I do tend to "shut down" when things start going "south."

Letting Go of Bitterness and Anger

I watched the videos I made yesterday at my hometown's Memorial Day ceremony. I heard myself speaking some bitter words. I wasn't listening to the speakers. Frankly they were ticking me off. I am thankful that I didn't put it out there publicly. It wouldn't have been helpful to anyone. It may have hurt. It is good that they still had the ceremony that honored the dead.

Letting go of bitterness and anger isn't easy. When I contemplate the carnage that our governor and other democratic governors have done, I can't help getting angry. The bitterness comes in when I feel helpless to do anything about it. I know that it is detrimental to my health to let anger and bitterness rule me.

I understand that God is in control. It is the only thing that keeps me going. I can function when I know that he will work all things out for my good. I can stop stressing over what's happening.

Letting go of bitterness and anger is necessary. It doesn't serve any purpose.

I resolve to hand over my fears for tomorrow to the One who holds all tomorrows in his hands. I will let God reign in my heart and mind. I won't try to control my destiny, but put my destiny in his hands. He will guide me and save me.

Letting go of bitterness and anger frees me to love others. The release of bitterness and anger creates a void that can be filled with God's love. I know that I can't let go when I do it under my own power and strength. There has to be someone to help me let go.

I can't rely on my own devices. I have to rely on God. It is the only way to true peace and happiness.

Letting go of bitterness and anger shows others that you are a child of God. They want what you have, because it shows on your face. You can't hide the happiness that flows out of you. It is also like a weight being lifted.

I praise God for releasing me from bitterness and anger. I can move forward in his perfect plan. I cherish the lessons that I am learning.

Letting go of bitterness and anger honors God. It tells him that you trust him with your life. You are letting him control you and bring you joy.

I love you, Lord. You fill my heart with gladness. You free my soul to soar over the heavens. How marvelous are the works of your hands! I see them new every morning.

Standing Up For Freedom: Fighting Against Tyranny

I really never thought I'd be in this position. By nature I am an introvert, and used to be very shy. It has only been fairly recently that I've been thrust into a position where I need to be more extroverted. There is a reason for the change in my personality. I think we all go through it at one time or another in our lifetime. For some of us that change comes on suddenly. We don't understand it. We sometimes wish it didn't happen, yet we can't go back.

Standing up for freedom is hard. Everyone tells you that you are crazy to "buck" what's happening. You should be grateful for the "free" money and that the government wants to control every aspect of your life. You should welcome the surveillance and tracing that they are planning to do. You should embrace the mandatory vaccine. Governors know what's best....Not!

Yes, I am nervous about the stand I'm taking. It isn't easy to fight against tyranny in any form. They use soft words, telling us it is for our own good. They tell us that they know what's best for us. They don't. I am glad that some are waking up to the fact that the power hungry Democratic governors are causing their states' economy to crash. It is not President Trump's fault, as much as they like to put the blame on him.

The fight may be bloody soon. I shudder to think this, yet some have said that freedom doesn't come without cost. I am reminded of the many men and women who fought to preserve our freedom. I imagine that they are rolling in the graves at the sight that their states have given up their freedom for safety. The fear mongers are in full force. They would have us trembling in our houses waiting to die. I often wonder how this time period will be recorded. Will the lessons we learned about the corruption be front and center? I'd like to think that we will be victorious over the socialistic Congress, and defeat their evil schemes to completely bankrupt the country so they can bring in their new world order.

Don't get me wrong. There are some good things about globalization. It has brought the world closer together. Globalization though is an enemy to freedom and an encouraging force for tyrannical governments. The problem is that everything is so meshed together that it is easy to forget that you are not part of an global entity. Globalization steals identity and exasperates poverty.

It is Obama's legacy that is now coming to haunt us. He encouraged the lessening of American pride and created a well of disbelief that knocked the country to its collective knees. People got used to the free cell phones and other goodies that they didn't have to pay for or work for at all. They didn't realize that they were selling their souls to the government.

This fight against tyranny won't be easy. Many are disillusioned by the promise of free money for life. They don't realize the terrible cost they will pay for it.

Rays of Hope in the Midst of a Great Darkness

I recently had a vision of the future that made me want to cry happy tears. In this season where we dwell in great darkness, it is nice to turn our focus on those rays of hope. Frankly all the "doom and gloom" has really started to affect my mental and physical health. I saw this future as one where everyone had a job they loved to do, they had resources they needed and everyone had the freedom to do what they wanted. I know that vision isn't practical. Not everyone will have a job they love to do. Not everyone will have the resources they need, and not everyone has the freedom to do what they want.

Some may that hope is overrated. The great darkness surrounds us with depressing images of a draconian society. I can hear them laughing at our struggles to free ourselves from the great darkness. They press us with hopeless messages of despair and pain. Yet those rays of hope poke through the darkness and shine light on their evil deeds. They can't hide. Hope always blooms.

I hate the changes our society is going through now. Some may say that they are the result of our compliance with the disintegration of our moral compass. We allowed the evil to flourish. Yet we now complain when we see the bitter fruits of this compliance with the Devil and his minions.

There are some rays of hope that pierce the great darkness. Nothing will remain hidden. It will all be brought to light soon. I do rejoice to see the movement of many who want to take back their freedom from tyrannical governments. They see the darkness, and want to shine the light on the ugly corruption. They will be exposed soon. When that day comes, we will rejoice that God has brought us through the dark sea.

I see a great vision where God is magnified and exalted throughout the whole world. It is a beautiful vision. I feel the tears in my eyes when I realize I have been set free...

Oh, Lord...Thank you for those rays of hope in this great darkness. Thank you for the light of your word that shines brighter than the sun in the sky. It is you, Lord that carries us through the storm. I don't have to be afraid of this dark storm that seems to overcrowd the sky. I can lean on the Lord, my Savior.

I am a vessel in God's hands. This great darkness can't hide me from God. He sees me even then and loves me with a love that is indescribable. I am amazed that he could love me. I am nothing special. Yet he signals me out to stand in his presence and bask in his radiant love. I don't deserve his love. None of us do. He sends those rays of hope, so we may know him.