Taking time to pray

How often we rush about worrying about things we can't possibly fix. We try to push ourselves in too many different directions without taking any time to step back and pray. It is funny and scary in a way that we rely too much on ourselves or on the government to fix things. We are fools to think that we can fix what's broken. Maybe there is a reason that things are broken. Maybe we need to reach out to God like we did before.

How can we say that we trust the Lord when we are not willing to let go of those things that are too much for us to handle alone? How can we point fingers when we ourselves can't see what's right in front of us? My heart sometimes sickens when I realize how wrong I've been. I try and struggle to do what I feel is necessary, not realizing that I may be making things worse.

We all need to take time to pray. Once we do, then we will realize that God has us in his hands and he won't let us go.

A typical week or learning to lean on God

I haven't had a typical week for a while now. I had weeks that have taken me to the depths of despair and back to the lofty heights. I had other weeks where I didn't even know where I was going. Usually I complain about the situation I'm currently in, not realizing that in doing so that I'm deserting God. How foolish! I know I have to learn to lean on God more. It's a hard lesson for most of us....some would say it's a Western mindset, but I discount that.

I believe that we all feel that somebody owes us something. We walk around oblivious to the world around us. Who can we blame for our inattention? We rush, and don't stop to look at what we are doing to ourselves and the people around us. I guess that is why I've always had a fascination with time and loved time travel stories. You see in time travel stories the main character has no choice but to stop and look around him or her at the strange new (old) world around him/her.

You have to lean on God. It's impossible to lean on anyone else. I am learning that I can't depend on the people around me, nor can I really depend on myself. I need that anchor even in a typical week.

Viruses and Other scary things

I recently went through what I like to refer to as a scary situation in regards to my computer. I was doing some research on-line for my book project when all of the sudden my computer acted like it had a mind of its own. It closed down, went back up and seemed to laugh at my frustration. I was lucky. I have a "computer whiz" for a little brother who looked at the problem and found the solution.

What I thought was a virus was actually a lesson to be learned. I am still learning it. I am grateful to everyone who listened and calmed my fears. Some would tell me that I was being silly. I needed to step back and take time to listen. Once I did that, the scary things seemed to melt away. I think the hardest thing to do is not let the hard stuff weigh you down.

It is kind of funny. Everyone tells me "Good Luck" when what they are really telling me is that they don't believe I can do it. At least that is what I hear. I have to get past this, focus on the work and tell myself that I can do it. If I don't do it, who will? I can't let my fears of the scary things around me drag me in. I just can't. I have to trust God to work out his plan for my life.

Best Friends

Best friends are always there for you. They listen when you're feeling blue. They build you up and make you feel worthy. I have a best friend, who has been with me since we were little kids. I can vaguely recall the first time we met as 10 year old girls. She was a tomboy....me not so much...but I got my love for nature from her. I remember how we explored the woods near Collingdale Park. We didn't find much there, except for refuse.

Best friends give good advice. They know you better than you know yourself. They are always willing to go to "bat" for you. They are your greatest cheerleader and closest companion. Sometimes you get into fights with them, but they never last long.

I do thank God for my best friend.