Upsetting changes and upheavals

I came back from vacation well rested, only to find that things changed radically while I was gone. It was hard that first week to find my footing. You tell yourself that things will settle down. You try to comfort the people around you. It doesn't work. You drift, dreaming of better days. When will they happen, you ask. You wonder if the upheavals in your personal life are just a reflection of the upsetting changes that are happening all around you. You have to stop. Focus on one thing. Breathe and look around you. Then the upheavals in your life will start to make sense

I can tell my parents are upset. They are understandably worried about what you know who will do next. Will they have their Social Security or will you know who take it away from them? It's all too much to handle. Yes, I'm understandably upset too. I don't want to be out on the street either, as far too many of my fellow citizens are. I see them daily as I walk the streets of the city. Their faces reflect the pain those changes have inflicted on them. I pray daily not to be like them. I don't know if I would be able to handle that big of an upheaval.

I have to remember that the Lord is in control, otherwise I will go completely insane with worry and fear. I need to remember that the future is in God's hands, not in you know who's hands.

Time's promise

Funny when you think about all the times you promised to do this or do that and it never came to pass. You try in your own way not to stress yourself out. Maybe this is why sometimes you feel like screaming. You know you boxed yourself into a corner. You want to please everyone, even though you know you can't. It is scary. You pray that everything will go according to plan. You didn't want to wait in that train station for five hours.

Oh, Lord...it is hard to trust you. It is the best thing to do. If you don't trust God, then life has no meaning for you. You wallow in your own self pity, denying existence. Foolish! When will you see who is in front of you waiting for you to stop kidding yourself! You exist because God placed you here. In you is the promises that time brings to fruition. So buck up, pray without ceasing and trust God that he will do what he promises to do.

Why can't I let go and let God? Why do I struggle so within the confines of time and space? I want to bend it and mold it to my specifications. Fool! Don't you know that only God has that control? Satan and his minions will try, but will not succeed. Praise God for that!