Rejoicing and Letting Go

I had a relatively good week. I started on a project, had another project thrust upon me and continued the ongoing search for meaningful work. My family did bless me by allowing me some time to reflect on where I was going. I know now that I do have to stop some habits that were dragging me down. I do have a lot to be thankful for. I can rejoice that I'm in relatively good health. I can stop focusing on what's wrong with my life. I can let go of the anxiety that has been my constant companion for far too long.

I know God loves me. I know that he does have a plan for this phase of my life. I can let go of the doubts and fears that drag me down. I can rejoice that I will be well provided for and trust that God will guide me. It hasn't been easy for me to let go. The old demons that tell you that you're stuck in the pit of poverty and despair have been trying to drag me down. It is hard to see past the circumstances that led me here struggling to break free.

I am excited about the projects, hoping that something good will come out of them. I can't let fear dominate me anymore. There will be some things that I feel I'm not capable of doing. I have to face them head on, and press forward. Yes, it will be scary. Public speaking is not my "cup of tea" but I will do it. I just have to set my mind to do it. I can rejoice that the message will get through and let go of my doubts. The Lord knows what I need.