Week Six-In the Wastelands

Another pretty rough week last week with no one calling or emailing me for interviews, but a couple of rejection letters. I do feel like I'm in the wastelands. I don't know what to do. Waiting for something to happen when you're out of money is difficult.

I can be thankful that my family is adjusting to the lack of money right now. I can be thankful that i still have shelter and food. I can be thankful that I'm in relatively good health, even though others in the family aren't doing as well.

Communication is key. I know that, but the problem is that there is just too much competition. I am being buried by those that are smarter and younger than I am. It is not enough to know the basics anymore. It just seems like employers are asking too much and expecting too much. They can afford to be choosy. They are not worried about whether or not they'll have a place to stay.

Our country is in the wastelands too. More and more are accepting a real gross way of life and forcing others to follow them into the pit. None understand what they are getting themselves into by accepting such gross behavior. I'm sorry. I can't accept it.

Maybe that is the reason why I'm still in my present state of crisis. I can't embrace that lifestyle. I shouldn't have to be afraid that some pervert will expose himself in the ladies room. I don't want to think about all the depravity that is going on and the wholesale worship of Satan. They hate us. They want to put fear in our hearts and turn everyone against us.

I know that is my paranoia talking....thinking that people are against me...when what they really hate is Jesus Christ. They don't want to be reminded that the USA was once a Christian nation. They don't want to acknowledge that God guided this country and made it great. We turned our collective backs by electing and supporting officials who blatantly confessed their amoral behavior and supported evil practices.

I know that God's judgment is coming for this nation and for all the nations of the world. It has been written and foretold long ago. I do believe that there was a death in 2008....a death of Christian values and beliefs. I know what you may be thinking.  You're thinking that the death had come a lot earlier. Maybe in some ways it had...once we accept sin a proper behavior and start calling moral and upright behavior bad...then we've fallen down a slippery slope.

We are in the wastelands. Technology in some ways has sucked up our collective ability to reason and think for ourselves. I admittedly depend on it way more than is good for me. In some important ways it has opened up new horizons for me. In other important ways it has barred me from meaningful work.

Can we get back that innocence and embrace the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob? I fear not. Yet God's grace is still here. We need not worry or fear. Thank you, Lord for that grace.