Week Four-Feeling Stressed Out

I am thankful that the "log jam" that seemingly prevented me from getting interviews has broken. I've had over half a dozen interviews since January after over a year of just one or two interviews. I had one last week and one this week. I am hopeful that I will find something very soon. I have to. Money is definitely running out.

I am a bit stressed out. Maybe it is because I've stepped way out of my comfort zone with the 125th anniversary committee and with the society. It's not easy. The job market embraces those who are willing to put themselves out there, but frowns on those who aren't willing or able to do it. It just doesn't seem fair.

I am glad for the many friends and family that are willing to stand in the gap with me. I know I've touched a nerve with my persistance and tenacity. Am I willing to put it all out there? I don't know. I'm nervous about how things will look or that I will say the wrong thing.

I am a child of the King. I have to keep saying this. He knows what I'm going through now. He knows everything about me. I just have to wait on him and his leading. Lord, I admit that I am scared. I admit that I feel uptight when I shouldn't be. I admit that sometimes I let fear and doubt overwhelm me until I can't even think straight.

Lord, please help me be the person you want me to be and do the things you want me to do. Give me the strength to face each day and help me find meaningful work.