Trying to Make Sense of it All: Another Lesson in Humility

I had a historical society meeting tonight. It wasn't well attended. Questions were asked about why but I really couldn't answer them. It just doesn't make sense. There seemed to be such an interest, but no one really wants to do that hard work. I have a core group of pretty amazing guys that are so totally involved. Maybe that's all I need.

I can't stress out over the non response that I've received. It shouldn't matter whether or not you attend a meeting, but it does. I am learning to let go. I am learning not to take things to heart. I can get through this and move forward.

All I can honestly say is that I'm doing the best I can. All I can do is what is in front of me to do. All I can ask is that God grant me what I need.

It is hard to be humble sometimes when grand ideas take shape. It is equally hard to watch those dreams go up in smoke. I know that there are many people on the sidelines who really want to help, but I haven't been able to give them the tools they need. I know that there are some who have just literally "dropped out of sight." What do you do with those who just ignore the messages? How do you make it all attractive and interesting? I don't know. I am still trying to make sense of it all.

I do long for reasonable, long lasting, dependable employment. I am at the end of my rope here. I also need to be humble about what is out there for me.