Floating and Dreaming of An Unstressful life

We had our first taste of fall this week when the weather changed. We also had our first days long rain storm. Thankfully we didn't get the floods South Carolina is getting. I am so grateful for that.

I have been stressing out too much lately. Worrying about things I have no control over and wondering why God is silent to my pleas.

I have yet to learn the lessons God is trying to teach me about trusting him for all things. I try too much to twist the outcome that I can't see what's right in front of me. I know that I can have that unstressful life. I can dream of a life that has some meaning. I don't have to settle for something I don't want or need. This is freeing.

Yes, I am still on the financial edge I've been in for a long time. Yes, my prospects for employment in a corporation are dim. No, I'm not giving up on finding meaningful work. No, I am not going to succumb to despair and melancholy.

I will rejoice in what I do have. I will honor and respect the people around me. I will continue to reach out and talk to others.

Lord is with me. He will guide me in the way I should go. I know I need help to follow his leading. I know that I can't do anything on my own.

I can love him because he first loved me. I can know him because he first knew me and still knows me. I can serve him because he first served me. He miraculously saved me from myself and my foolish pride. His ways are past my understanding. I can place my burdens on him as he knows my needs before I do.

He is my Rock and my Mighty Deliverer. He is my Savior and my God. I can trust him with my future because he hold my future in his strong capable hands. Oh, Lord....please forgive my doubt and help me let go of the weight of stress and worry that robs me of the love you so graciously pour out. Let me not turn my back on those who need you. Help me to see others through your eyes. I am so unworthy of your love, Lord. Thank you for loving me.