Keeping Positive when everyone around you wants to bring you down

Yes, I had one of those weeks. You do try your hardest to remain positive about the increasingly dire situation you're now in. It's not easy. You wonder from day to day if there will ever be a light to see by. Some days all you hear is the negative things which makes it hard to stay afloat in the restless sea of life. Other days you can see something in the distance, so you move towards it. Weights of fear and doubt drag you under the waves. You can't breathe. You can't even think straight...Then it happens.

Someone comes alongside you, seemingly out of nowhere. He or she steps in when you feel like you're just one step away from succumbing to the negative forces surrounding you. You know he or she is from God because everyone else wants to see you join them in the morass of despair and hopelessness. Only God can rescue you from that pit of despair that threatens to overwhelm you. You know this.

Yet something inside wants to rebel. How can you keep positive when there is nothing to look forward to in this life? Do you really have to suffer while everyone else is seemingly happy? Are they really happy though or is it just pretend? You ask yourself this daily as you struggle to make sense of the increasingly difficult trial you are going through. Why can't I be happy? Why must I struggle so? What has righteousness and purity have to do with anything? When will it all end?

Ah...I do know these questions very well. I know that God has a plan for me, and that there is something to look forward to in this life. I may not see it now, but someday I will. I can keep positive because God loves me, and he provides for me daily. Sometimes I do suffer because of my own stubbornness and pride. Sometimes I suffer because others don't understand why I take the stands I take. Happiness is a state of mind. I tell myself that I choose to be happy. I can let the difficult trial I'm currently in wreck me or I can grow and learn from it. I don't know why I struggle so much at times. I guess it's because sometimes it's difficult to see what God has in mind for me. Righteousness and purity are values I strive for in my every day life. I want others to see God through me. It will end soon....I wait anxiously for the Lord's return.