Yes, I am a quitter.

You're probably thinking "Wow! what a statement to make!" Yet, admitting that sometimes the best thing for everyone is to quit is often the hardest thing to do. You want to justify yourself. Beat yourself up. Ask yourself why you did it. I've done all that this past week. The only explanation is that I couldn't continue with the sham. I felt like I was lying to the person on the other end of the line...and I was. I was also lying to myself, telling myself that I could do it...when I knew I couldn't.

Yes, I know that some drill in your head that you shouldn't quit. I believe that circumstances dictate this action. You need to weigh the good and the bad before leaping. You can't just quit on a whim. It may have seemed that way to my employer. I did give them that impression when I wrote that "I was not suited for the position." I wanted to say more, and maybe I should have said more. I was stuck. I didn't want to badmouth them for their strict work environment. Some people thrive in such an environment. I don't. I didn't want to complain about the barriers put in my way which irritated me.

I have been giving serious thought to contracting out my services....ie: putting myself out for both admin and document management services. It does seem that I'm not going to get the experience most employers are clamoring for if I continue on this road. Then there the sad fact that the government is in the same quandary that I'm in....trying to decide to go the easy, unmoral way or take a stand for morality.