Trying to stay afloat in an increasingly hostile world

There are little signs that things are starting to look up. Yet it is hard. The pressure I'm feeling now from all sides is enough for me to want to completely shut down. The world isn't what it was when I was young. Back then there wasn't as much stress. At least it didn't seem that way. I didn't worry about whether or not I'd be able to keep my house or have enough to eat. I didn't worry that my personal information would be assimilated all over the Internet for everyone to see and steal. I didn't worry about being alone with increasingly fragile people that need my support now.

I am trying to stay afloat. That isn't easy. Everyone wants to take you down to their level. They tell you that things will only get worse, and that you can't depend on anyone else. They don't know God. In their eyes, he doesn't exist. You can't tell them that he's there, because they can't see him. They are increasingly hostile to those who try to bring light into the darkness. They love the darkness, even when they are complaining about things that don't matter.

I do trust the Lord. I know that he is working through me. I know that he is leading me through some dark passages now. My eyes are open, but it is hard. My heart hurts when I see all the stuff that is happening to those around me. I feel helpless. Yet I do know he sees and hears everything.

He knows my daily struggle to lean on him, and not on my own understanding. I know that I must be strong and courageous, but I would love someone to come along side me...and tell me that I'm on the right path.