God is in control

How often I forget this! How often I need to be reminded that I have no control. He does. It doesn't help to get angry or upset at circumstances I have no control over, nor is it wise to ignore what the Lord is teaching me through them. I know I still have a lot to learn about life, about love and how to be like Jesus. I have in the past week or so mulled over the definition of sacrifice. Sometimes I do feel that I've already sacrificed a lot in dealing with a mentally challenged brother, two elderly parents and the pressure of not knowing what tomorrow will bring. Other times I know I haven't sacrificed nearly enough, and that makes me feel guilty. I see the people on the street and shudder. I can't help them. I can't even help myself. Yet the face of a young woman with tears streaming down her face haunts me. So does the face of an older woman whose fate is to go on welfare because she can't learn the new technology.

Then the numerous other unknown faces of all those who will be left out in the cold once the new mandate of the healthcare law goes into effect in October haunt me. I feel helpless until I remember that God is in control. He will make a way for me and for all those others to be free of the electronic shackles we've been placed in. He will lead us home. I pray constantly that I would be worthy of him....that I would please him....that he wouldn't say to me...depart from me....I never knew you. That would to me be the scariest thing of all....to have God say  "I never knew you"..and be lost for all eternity.

My heart aches for all of those caught in the lies the media and the government unknowingly spread. They don't know. Their hearts are closed. I realize that now....I didn't before. So I pray that their hearts will be opened somehow and they would know Jesus for who he is...the Son of God.