Reflecting on leaving a legacy

I reached a pretty big milestone yesterday. Some may be persuaded to think that I should be celebrating it, and some do. I've never really been that big on celebrating milestones, except when I'm celebrating someone else's milestone. I have gotten to the point in my life that I'm more into leaving a legacy than in accumulating stuff. I'm realizing that I need to start getting out of the "me" hole and finding out what others need. It hasn't been easy for me. I know everyone has in their own way tried to help, and I definitely appreciate it.

Yet I can't help thinking about what my next steps are. Should I just get something that I may totally hate doing just to have a job? Or should I continue to reach out and search for the one position where I feel I'm really making a difference in someone's life? I know where I want to go with this historical society, and I know that this could be a good way to leave a legacy behind when I'm no longer around.

When you reach a certain age, those thoughts about what is no longer there permeate and you start to realize that the world you thought would always be there is no longer there. It's a scary feeling. I guess that's why I like to retreat into history sometimes. It's permanent and it's not going to change....only the buildings disappear.

I'm grateful for the people I've met over this year and half of unemployment. Yet I yearn for a job, and desperately need the money because everything is going up....and there's the ever looming threat of being out on the street. I know a few who are only a few short steps away from that and it's scary. So...what legacy will I leave behind? What do I want my little nieces to remember about me? I know what I want them to remember....that I love the Lord God and that I've faithfully followed him. I want them to know that God loves them, but he hates sinners.....so I'd want them to know that the Word of God is the ultimate authority and everything in it is true no matter what someone tries to tell you about it or how that they twist it to serve their own purposes. I want them to know that I love them, but hate the sin(s) that they're exposed to on a daily basis and wish them to call on God to eradicate them from their young lives. I want them to see Christ in me and want what I have in him most of all. The road isn't easy, but it's a good one....and a good legacy to leave behind.