A week of scary changes-trying to cope

Yes, I am thankful for so many things. For all the bad stuff people say about technology, I have to say that in some ways it really works. As some of you are probably aware by now, I had to make an unpopular decision in regards to some of my on-line avenues. Standing up for what you believe is hard. You are going to make enemies for that stance. Even some of your friends will question you as to why you're doing it. What is the difference, they'll ask. You'll even question yourself about why.

What is done, is done. That is the bottom line. Once you associate yourself with ideals that you don't believe in, you are marked by those ideals whether you like it or not. Yes, it is scary to stand up against the wickedness you see around you. I am still trying to cope with the pure evil that I sense from those who believe strongly in those ideals. I do pity them too....and cry for their souls. They are lost, but are unwilling to be found.

That is why I did it. I do understand the hurt I must have placed on people's hearts because of the social aspect of the social medium. I'm also a bit amazed by it as well. I have to ask myself why do these people care so much about me? I am not famous. I just had one book published...and am struggling to bring out the good in the borough which I wrote about in the book. Maybe there is a lesson in all this. Maybe by saying no and taking the unpopular stand, I am in essence educating people that what they are condoning is wrong.

Right now though I am still struggling and praying constantly to the Lord to guide me. I realize more than ever that God is in control. He sees my needs, comforts me when I felt lost and gives me a heart for my enemies. Yes, I do pray for them that their eyes will be open to the wickedness and lies that have controlled their lives and open to God's love.