I had another "shock" this week. One that I should have expected, but didn't. Right now I'm feeling very sick and tired of every "bureaucrat" that tells you that "Oh, no...you can't do that!" I wonder to myself, "Why not?" I get no answer. I tried to be honest. I'm guessing honesty doesn't pay. Yet I can't help thinking that if I wasn't honest, I would have been "burnt" anyway. So I'm not quitting, as much as I would like to do that right about now.
I know the Lord has a plan for me. Right now it's very hard to see it. I know that too many are going through similar issues and have cried out for help. I also know that I am grateful for all those that are and continue to support me through this dark time. Will I survive it? Right now I don't know that either. All I do know is that I need to trust God to see me through this and provide that place where I can be secure once again and be able to provide for myself and for those I love.
Yes, I freely admit that I'm going through a crisis. Thankfully it isn't, as yet, a serious crisis. I need someone to come alongside me and tell me that everything is going to work out. I need a sign to reassure my flagging spirit that is feeling sick that I'm going in the right direction. Right now it just seems as if everything is falling down around me. Yet I do know that I will get through this period of stress and anxiety that right now is zapping my strength with the Lord's help and guidance.
So I am crying for help. My greatest fears are looming before me, and I don't know if I can stand by myself. Lord, please help me to find that security and stability I need in you. Help me to fight those that would drag me down with them and support those who need me. I need you, Lord.
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