Moving Forward and Not Back: A Lesson in Humility

These past two weeks have been a bit strained as I struggled a bit with the new normal. You might be thinking that I should be past this by now. It has been a year since my mother passed. I let go of the guilt I felt back then. I have in some ways moved forward. Some days are better than others.

I am learning a lesson in humility. Pride sometimes gets in the way. I struggle because there's just something that just doesn't want to let go. I can't get pass it. I really want to. I want to be used by God in whatever capacity he deems me to be used.

Tomorrow we will commemorate the day when the world changed forever. We will mourn those that lost their lives that long ago day, but we will also thank God that they aren't here. You may wonder why I say that. The country those people knew is definitely not the same country we know today.

It was on that day that America proved its vulnerability to outside attacks. It also opened the floodgates for those who would tear this country apart at the seams. We didn't realize then. There was a brief time of patriotism and unity with the shared tragedy. It didn't last long. We moved forward and not back. We didn't want to think about what just happened. There was no rallying cry for revenge that time because there was no country or person responsible. At least that was what the news media had us believing at the time.

America was no longer invincible. Our core beliefs in the morals that our grandparents learned weren't there to guide us. We were left drifting and humiliated. Some would have us believe that we could go back to that time of prideful ignorance. We can't. We have already been attacked from within. Yet there is hope for those who haven't turned their backs on God and his plan.

We shouldn't continue to rely on America and its leadership to run our lives. We should pray for that leadership that they make wise decisions but we can't depend on them. We do have to move forward and not back while we learn lessons in humility.

It won't be easy. No one ever said life would be easy. We do need more than ever to lean on God through his son Jesus Christ. God's plan is perfect. We need to start accepting that maybe God's plan is to let America fall. It is a scary thought. I do believe that God has used and will continue to use those in powerful places. They may not understand how they are being used or why it's happening. Yet if we are humble enough, we'll see God at work. We don't need to understand. We just have to trust him.