Bogged Down and Stressed Out-Fighting Fears

Another strange title but it is how I'm feeling right now as I unsuccessfully tried to promote a baking contest. I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't have the right contacts that would be enthused enough to promote it. I just don't know what I was thinking when I proposed it.

I am feeling bogged down by all the responsibilities that have been laid at my feet. I am stressed out by trying to make myself heard. I am fighting fears and feeling sick over the devastation and future devastation from Hurricane Matthew.

I know I'm not alone. Even though sometimes it feels that way. I have been going through a lot lately. The latest shock was what the Collingdale library plans to do with all their non-fiction and reference books. I just felt sick. Why? Why would you throw away 22,000 books!!!! It is so crazy that I still have difficulty wrapping my mind around it.

Yes, it does seem like the government is trying to get rid of history this way. Throwing away old and relevant books and expecting everyone to rely on the Internet for information is crazy. I do admittedly take information from the Internet for my work. Yet I would love to have the opportunity to check out some old reference books to confirm my information. It's getting too hard now. They don't want to you to know the truth.

I am bogged down by the weight of oppression. When will it all end? My dad keeps hoping that Jesus will come soon. I do too. This world is not mine own.