Feeling at Loose Ends And Struggling Against Apathy

Yup....I have to admit... if just to myself... that I am feeling at loose ends. My freelance work does take up a lot of my time now. I also have a lot to do with the non-profit organization I run as a volunteer. It is hard to get people involved anymore. I do struggle with my own apathy about the whole situation and with other people who complain about the situation. Sometimes I do feel like screaming when I hear the abuse and complaints that are leveled at people who are only trying to preserve a way of life.

We recently celebrated 4th of July in my small hometown. It was a nice small parade with a few people who participated and a very small crowd on the sidewalks. The rain kept a lot of people away from the festivities at the park afterwards, but there was still a nice small crowd.

I do feel at a lost to gain enthusiasm for events at my small hometown. Everyone is feeling the pinch of unemployment or underemployment. The thing is that if you have no money to spend, you can't spend it. I know that this is a hard concept to master. You do have to make concessions for not being able to fund events anymore. I do feel bad. I definitely would like to contribute to making these hometown events memorable...but I can't.

I realize that a lot of the apathy comes for the young people who haven't a clue about their own local history. They don't really care either about what that building means or why we should save this building but not that one. It is pathetic to see and hear people complain about what the town used to look like...and not do anything at all to change the perception of the town.

It's all those loose ends. No one wants to address the preservation issues or why there are so many abandoned buildings in our hometown. They rather complain about those issues expecting that someone else will handle it. Unfortunately no one will.