No, I don't get much into birthdays. My parents kick up a fuss. They seem to expect me to acknowledge my birth and force me to go to a celebration. I tried to tell them that I really don't want the celebration at all. They think I'm callous. Maybe I am...
Yet I do hate the fuss. I want everyone just to leave me alone to celebrate my birthday quietly and without any fuss. I know that I'm going to hear it from my sister. She especially thinks that I'm going to "go with the flow" and attend the celebration "just because." I am very frustrated that they just don't get it. I don't want the fuss. I don't want to feel obligated to get something that the person probably doesn't really need....especially now when I'm in a crisis mode.
Why can't they understand? Why do they always have to make me feel bad for refusing to participate in something I can't believe in anymore? I told them that I'd much rather have just a card...then for anyone to get me something I can't really use. I know there are aching needs too....
I'd rather fill those needs. Will anyone understand that? Can I make them understand it? Oh, Lord...you know my heart. Please help me make them understand that I don't want this fuss and bother.
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