Too many avenues to cross-Time to get away and reflect

Yep....this definitely looks inviting. Frankly I am finding that I'm slowly burning out as I continue to search for that elusive job....You know the one. You probably are searching too. It is not easy to work your way towards what seems like an elusive goal knowing that soon enough time will run out. I am finding myself being dragged into working for nothing just so I can prove that I haven't been sitting on my hands while my savings dwindle down to nothing.

I do have options. Some of them will completely ruin my health (retail jobs) and others that will require a lot of hard work for little or no payment. I know for certain that I don't want to go back to the "cage" of the corporate world which no one has any power but to keep your head down and do the work until you are laid off. I am not the same person I was over 2 years ago when I was laid off. I have grown so much in the past 2 years as a person that it would be difficult but not impossible to go back to that setting. I have tried it once for a month. I hated it.

I know that everyone is pressing me to take anything...yet I am torn. Is it worth ruining my health just to have money coming in? What about my commitments to see my venture through to the bitter end? How about the responsibilities I now have to the community? There are too many avenues to cross. I do feel like I'm being pulled in thousand different directions. It is time for me to get away and reflect on what my next steps will be for my life.