Trying to get past a scary point in my life

I don't know if you ever had a time in your life when you felt as if everything was falling down around you. I have. It hasn't been easy for me realizing that I'm so close to the edge of losing everything. I admit that it's downright scary. Everyone tells you that it's going to be alright. You tell yourself that as well. Sometimes it helps. Sometimes it doesn't.

Anyone who knows me, knows that this period in my life has been really rough. I had a rough time dealing with the fear and anxiety that comes when you realize that in a very short period of time you will have no money coming in at all. I know there are many in my situation, but that doesn't help. Actually it kind of exasperates it...makes it worse...to the point that I can feel myself sinking into despair. I am trying hard not to think about what will happen once the money runs out or the fact that I feel like banging my head against the wall every time I hear the words that are the bane of my existence....You've been unemployed too long for anyone to hire you. I want to scream but can't seem to let it out.

It is affecting me both emotionally and physically. I can't seem to focus on anything or get enthused enough to make the effort to be rejected electronically for the umpteenth time...or be electronically exposed to the masses. Believe me....It's no picnic...and I'm not eating bonbons as much I'd like to. It is times like this when I go back to the scene in the movie "Facing the Giants" where the quarterback is blindfolded and then is pushed verbally to give it his best....I know I can't quit...even in this scary point where I don't know where I'll be a month from now.