Vacation blues

I get so frustrated at times. It seems as if I'm not meant to go on vacation. Just today, someone complained that I put in time before she did. Then she proceeded to plead for the time off! I felt like telling her off, but that's not the Christian thing to do. It's so hard to satisfy everyone. Can't they see what they're doing to me? I wish I could clone myself, and then be able to work and take vacation at the same time. Some people do that. They get all wrapped up in their work that they forget everything else. I can't be like that. I need that time off. I deserve it. At least this is what I keep telling myself as the roadblocks keep piling up in front of me. I can't help it if someone calls out sick....but I can pray that it doesn't happen. Then there are those that feel that they're privileged or something....so they can say that they'll take off at the drop of a hat. It makes me very angry. Why does everyone assume that they can take advantage of me?

I am, I guess, too willing to help. I have to put my foot down. That's it. I can't let everyone walk all over me. It's not being a true leader, is it? No, my employees have to learn some respect, and realize that I can only do so much. It's times like this that I wish for something better, yet I am still learning to have a servant's heart.

Vacation time

Wow! I get nervous when I consider all the things that can go wrong. First it is finding the perfect place to stay. Then it is finding a way to get there. Maybe this is all the same. Yet I realize that I'm obsessing over things. I should step back. No, I have to take the risk. Isn't that what we all do when we start planning for that time off?

The last time I went on vacation anywhere, I got an unpleasant surprise when I got home. I guess the worst thing, and this did happen, is to be told that you are being laid off. I still recall the sick feeling when that news hit. I almost wished I hadn't gone away then.

Sometimes I wish that I wasn't stuck feeling like if I take some time off, that I have to justify it somehow. Other times I recall the good times I had while on vacation. I wouldn't miss those times or wish they never happened.

Revelations on time

Often these days we discover that our world is dangerously close to dying. We wonder as we ponder the latest crisis what we can do about any of it. The answer is revealed in the Bible. We must realize that God is in control. There is nothing we can do about anything. We must wait and hope for the best. God's timing is perfect.

How many of us believe this? Can we be honest and say that we don't? Yet, in the end it all comes down to what we believe and in turn cling to with all that is within us. A crisis can come in an instant of time. Will we be a fearful and frightened people or will we trust God? He reveals the times ahead if only we listen and heed the warnings.

Time to move on

I've been thinking a lot about how blessed we are here in the United States. There is so much we take for granted that others long for. This past year has shown me that truth. It is only when we have our eyes open to what could happen that we truly can move on and accept what is. I've been hurt. I think everyone has at one time or another. It's what we do with what we've been given that matters.

We are all responsible for how we use our time. We can moan about our circumstances and hope for a brighter day. We can wish that God would take us home. Then we would have to think about how the people we left behind will preceive our time here on Earth. Will we have made a difference in anyone's life? Or will we be forgotten as they move on. I want to use my time wisely, yet feel as we all do, pulled in so many different directions.