Working My Way Out of Povertyville

Last week I finally broke down and took care of the issue I was having. I got help. I am glad I did. There are still things I'll probably need to face. I know that I can't do it all alone. If I am going to continue my progress out of poverty I am going to have to reach out to others. It is a fools errand to think that I can do anything under my own power and with my own resources.

I met some amazing people. I am realizing that I don't have to be afraid anymore. I can step out of my comfort zone. No one ever said it would be easy. Sometimes I do wish it was.

I still have a long way to go. I have to be patient. I can't let things stress me out anymore. It is hard to be patient. You want things now, not tomorrow. You wish that you could do the things you want to do. Yet I am realizing more and more that the things that you want to do aren't necessarily the things that are good for you to do.

Looking at my life now I know that I really do still have a lot going for me. I got to start focusing on the positive, not the negative. I know myself a little better.

There are many tasks before me. There are many choices to make. As I work my way out of poverty, I do have to keep in mind my goals. I set some mini-goals that are easy to do. The first mini-goal is to release the negative mindset. That negative mindset is hindering me from reaching my goal of sustainable work. The second mini-goal is to continue to dream about possible jobs I can do without paying for more education. Dreaming is easy. I do have a passion for historic preservation. That is a wide field that I'm still discovering after three years. Yet my passion hasn't waned. There are jobs out there for people in that field. The daunting aspect is that most of the jobs require a masters degree. I can't do that now.

I can't help thinking that I could make a job for myself in this field. I'm just not sure where to begin. Any job would require me to get more involved with the government. It does seem that the government has taken more and more control.

I don't like this control because it makes it hard to get out of poverty. You become dependent on the government for your welfare. As I work my way out of povertyville, I do have to find a way to cut the government cord. Please pray for me.

Living and Finding Hope

It really actually felt like hell this past week with temperatures of over 100 degrees. I didn't get by unscathed or untouched. Right now I'm dealing with something I'm not sure I have the strength to face. It has affected how I'm living right now. I'm trying to find hope that things will clear up. It is scary, I have to admit.

I hear of friends going through trials. I feel for them. It isn't easy to keep a smile on your face when you're going through a particularly hard trial. You wonder why. There doesn't seem to be any easy answers. You tell yourself that things just have to get better for all of us. Yet every day it seems that things are getting worse.

It doesn't matter. You tell yourself. Maybe I am just fooling myself to keep handing onto hope. No, my God knows me. It does matter. Hope can bloom in a vacuum. I hang onto the Lord's promises for a good life. He won't give me anything that I can't handle.

I am admittedly scared. It is hard to know what to do. Even after so long a time, I miss my Dad. He would know what to do. At least I like to think he would.

It won't be long some people say. I am living now in the hope of the Lord's return. I am finding hope in God's word. I can stand on his promises for my life even when I'm scared. I confess my fear to the Lord. He takes it away.

I pray for healing. This old world needs it.

Living in Paradise vs. Living in Hell

You might think that this title is kind of strange. Who in the right mind would choose to live in hell? Yet this is what we do. We forget all the Lord has done for us. We can't remember his promises or what life can be. We are envious of those who seem to have it all together.

You could be wrong. Those people that you think are living in Paradise could be fooling you and themselves. God is not a god of deception and lies. He doesn't change as many think. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. We don't have to be envious of those who have it all together. We just have to realize and reach out. No one has to live in Hell.

I have to ask myself why I continue to struggle. I should be content. I am, according to most of the world, living in Paradise. I have all that I need because the Lord supplies it. I don't have to worry about where my next meal is coming from. Yet I still let petty things crowd my mind. I'm sometimes not grateful and find myself looking up from the pit of despair. I know that sin wars with my being sometimes making me do things I wouldn't ordinarily do. Thus the struggle...

I have a redeemer. I don't have to live in Hell. I can choose to follow the Lord. When I reflect on God's Word I start to realize that he has a good plan for my life. I don't have to struggle. I can rest in him.

Right now it might not seem like your life is going anywhere. You may feel that the circumstances you are in make it feel like you're living in hell. You may wonder if there is any way out. There is. I've been going through a rough patch, but God is with me. I look forward to living in paradise with him.

Reflections on America in a Globalist Society

It may be hard to admit. America has been suckered in by the siren song of the globalist. Ordinary citizens don't count anymore. We're too dependent and have been for far too long on other countries. These countries know this. They have tried to manipulate our way of life telling us that we're wrong and evil. They tell us hourly that we need to let go of our American ideals and embrace the new world order. Technologies are now here that are rapidly stealing our individuality and freedom.

We are told over and over that cash is evil. Our children are being indoctrinated in the godless and reckless "anything goes" mentality. Some would have you believe that patriotism is dead. America is tottering on the brink of dissolution. Globalism seizes and destroys a nation's identity. Yes we can try to fight the globalist pull on our lives. It won't work.

I've been feeling depressed lately about the state of America. I see the effects of technology on society as a whole. We're too dependent on what we see on the mainstream media. None of us seem willing to do some digging on our own. I admit that I haven't. I do try to research various sources for information. It is hard. It seems like every bit of information is controlled and manipulated to some degree.

Can America survive as an entity? I don't know. I do know what's currently happening in different areas around the world can happen here in America. It is no stretch of the imagination to see the divide between those who long to hang onto the vestiges of freedom and individuality and those who wholeheartedly embrace the conformity and sameness of a new world order. Right now I do see some glimmers of hope that America will survive the onslaught of the globalist agenda. It's only a small glimmer as I see artificial intelligence and other fancy technological advances swiftly taking over.

The globalists would like the new world order to happen as quickly as possible. They feel that they have been waiting for too long already. They hate America for what it stands for. They will do anything in their power to bring this nation down and dissolve it forever. They want us to be one big happy "family" in a global union. They are fooling themselves. America won't go down in the pages of history without a fight.