Feeling Worn but Pressing On

I came back from two meetings today. I did get some practical information but not geared toward the smaller organizations at the first meeting. I do feel I can use it to some degree. Since I'm not part of a big organization and really don't have the support I need to make things happen, I am feeling worn.

The second meeting was promising. Things are starting to move forward but it is hard when no one seems to show up. It is especially hard when you start depending on these people. I am pressing on and praying for the clouds to break over the obstacles that stand in our way.

I am encouraged to learn that the possibility of some action on one of the old buildings in Darby has increased. Understandably it is frustrating that things are moving so slowly and there is still a possibility of losing everything. I do pray that there is a change in attitude and eyes are open to the possibilities and potential Darby has.

The way things are now it doesn't look like things will change. I have to keep pressing on and encouraging others to press on as well. We need to find some motivation to get these kids off the street at night and into productive jobs. How do you do that? I haven't quite figured that out.

Then there is the increasing pressure and a deadline looming to find sustainable employment by January. I really should find something before then because my funds will be completely dry...:-( by then if not sooner.

I found a new (old) church to go to as my old church has radically changed their direction. I noticed it early last year...but stuck with them then. I did miss some of the activities and hated the change to a newer version of the bible. I found myself questioning what they were saying.  I didn't want to believe it at first. I stuck with them while they celebrated their 100th anniversary last year. I then mourned as more changes took place. Finally I decided that I had enough. I couldn't in good conscience continue on with that church. The changes they implemented starting two weeks ago were just too radical for me. It was time for me to move on.

Overwhelmed and Stressed Out

I know that it's been a couple of weeks since I've written this blog. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed by everything right now. It's not easy to push for ads. You get some rejection. You get questions. Am I making the right decisions?

I know that my parents are saints to put up with me. I am stressed out because I just can't seem to find enough time to do what I need to do. It's not easy to put yourself out there. You get rejected. You have questions. Did I do the right thing by writing those letters?

I know that there is a need out there. I am sure that there is someone out there that needs my services. Yet I can't seem to make the right connections. It's not easy to be patient when you're low on funds. You want answers. Should I be pressing and pushy to get those leads?

I am stressed out because I need funds to produce this booklet and banner. Oh, Lord...please help me to see that people do care about their community and want to promote their businesses and organizations.