Scrambling to Find Some Relief and Getting Low on Resources and Time

All of you who have been reading my blog know that time is running short for me. I don't know when time will end. I don't know why all of this is happening. I don't know what my next steps are. All I do know is that my financial situation is now critical. Almost like the world's situation....no one really knows when it will happen. All of us are still hoping for some sort of miracle.

We hang on to the Lord's promises, even when the sky is dark. I admittedly am scrambling to find some relief from the pressure I am feeling. It isn't pretty when you know that if you don't have sustainable revenue in the next month or so, you may have to succumb to government forces. Believe me when I tell you...no one, at least in my generation, actively seeks government intervention in helping them survive. Most of us really only take government help as our last resort.

Admittedly two-thirds of the population already have some sort of government assistance. This comes mostly in the form of healthcare since the price of even basic care has gone "through the roof" in cost. Most have no choice but to accept this type of government handout. They don't understand though what they are giving up. The government now controls your life.

I am getting low on resources that I can tap to steer away from this government control. I am following the Lord's lead though to keep out as long as I can. It isn't easy. I have to be careful and cautious, knowing that the Lord has kept me so far from oppressive government control.

I find myself asking the question: Will I be prepared when the economic crisis hits? Will any one of us be prepared for what the world will look like when it happens or will the Lord turn the economic tide back and save us from disaster?

How do I prepare for dissolution and despair or is that Satan talking? My Lord, you know the times and the seasons....help me prepare for your soon return and help all of us lean on you.

Seeking New Horizons While Focusing on The Old

I have a dream. I want to see everyone who longs for meaningful work and sustainable income to get it. I do envision a world where everyone has a purpose and is fulfilling that purpose.

I guess you can say that I'm seeking new horizons while focusing on the old. Why? Because I really don't know how to do anything else. I've been wired to work, but I've been frustrated by the fact that I'm competing with thousands. Then there's technology. Obama is right to blame it for some of the fallout, but not all of it.

I have a wish. I want the world to see what technology is doing to the planet and its people. I do envision a world where technology has taken over from humans. Admittedly that scares me.

I guess you can say that I want the world to go back to the way it was before all the technology took over. Children have no idea of how much technology has taken over their lives. Yet I do see peeks of innovation in those eyes. I'm not sure how to get them to see the physical world around them. If more refused to embrace the technology, we might have a better world.

I have a goal. I want to set up connections between the physical and the electronic so the younger generation will have something to hold onto when everything goes south. I do envision a world where the physical living history can be experienced. Right now...it's not happening.

I guess you can say that I'm crazy. I believe that there are ways to connect the two...which is why I'm seeking new horizons while focusing on the old. It is only from our history that we can learn the lessons to reach the heights. It is foolish to think that all there is....is in the future...or that we can't learn anything from our ancestors. They can teach us so much...if we only stop and listen.

A New Venture-Taking Those First Steps

I guess I can blame my parents for literally forcing me to take these first steps. They know my financial situation. The pressure is definitely on to do something to gain employment and/or gain a steady source of income within the next couple of months. They just don't want to hear anymore how difficult it is. I understand. They've put up with me for too long. Yet I can't help but get excited about a new venture that just may be the "ticket" for me to get some much needed cash.

I can't say too much right now since it's in the very early stages of development. The initial meeting to hash out the ideas this afternoon was very interesting. The problem is how to get the right people interested and willing to help out. It all comes down to who will be willing to invest in the idea. Ideas are good, but if you can't get any traction on them...then they "flop." For the people that are in on it with me, I'd hate to see that.

It is kind of scary too. I don't have the money to invest. I do have the passion to save these old buildings, making them useable again and creating revenue for the borough(s). It is going to be hard to make borough(s) understand the benefits they can realize by renovating and reusing old buildings instead of demolishing them. This will be hard to get across because American society loves to discard old stuff for new. It is only fairly recently that some have pressed for conservation and renewal of our resources. It makes economic sense as well.

We do have to sit down, polish up our ideas and get them in easy to understand format. Generating interest will be a key component in getting our ultimate goals in place. What am I hoping with this venture? I guess I'm hoping to generate a steady income for myself. If that's selfish talk, then I'd have to agree...but it's not going to get anywhere if there is no "buy-in." It is the old "what's in it for me" syndrome. The investors need to know what they will get out of their investment. It makes sense. Even I would like to have my money work for me.

I do pray that something comes my way. I admittedly dread having to work for a medical office or company. The pressure is there though...my parents want me to take anything...just so money is coming in. I admit that my financial situation has caused me to reconsider my stance for shift work, which would be my destiny should I succumb to taking a medical job. I feel fairly certain about that, since most medical offices/companies are begging for people to work those mid and overnight shifts.

I could be wrong, of course....but something else is also barring me from applying for medical office work. I hate it....plain and simple. I hate having my personal information exposed and hate having to ask all those personal questions of others. There I said it. So, my prayer is...Please...Dear God...Please Help Me Get A Job That Has Nothing To Do With The Medical Profession!!!!! I MEAN IT!

PLEASE STOP PRESSURING ME TO COMPLY WITH THE DESTRUCTION OF ALL PERSONAL INFORMATION!!!! I NEED A JOB THAT WILL NOT ASK ME TO EXPOSE MY PERSONAL INFORMATION ON THE INTERNET....AND I NEED IT NOW.

Happy New Year....I think

If someone told me back in 1999 that I'd be facing a huge financial crisis in 2016, I think I might have wanted even more to go back in time. I know that I should be looking forward, not thinking about the economic hole I've gotten myself into by traveling on this road. Yet I can't help thinking of all the life changing experiences I've had as well. This year does promise to change my life in ways I can't even imagine now.

I can't say now what those changes will look like...whether I'll even be around to celebrate 2017. No one really knows, so they tell me. The pressure to create a legacy to leave behind and to preserve legacy grows stronger day by day. I'm realizing more and more that this dependency on electronic devices and systems can only grow stronger as the younger generations are "shut out" from actually reading paper books. They are increasingly more dependent on computers and computer generated machines to do more and more. It is kind of scary.

Then there are those egomaniacs that cry crocodile tears when they know that they are feeding on people's insecurity. Freedoms are being stripped, but no one really understands or cares. I know that it will get worse before it gets better. Modern technology has made it too easy to control every aspect of a person's life. It may seem that you are free to express yourself in any way you want to, but that's not true. Messages, images and other documentation is quite easily manipulated to make someone's life a living hell.

I heard at least a few times these past five days that time is growing short to let people know about the Lord Jesus Christ. So this will be my year to come out and proclaim him as Lord of my life. I will stop with the negative posts and the "pity party" that I've been having. Instead I will embrace the path the Lord has for me and trust him to meet my needs.

No...my status hasn't changed. I'm still on the edge of financial collapse, but I'm trusting God to show me the way out and bless me financially. He has already blessed me by keeping me solvent this far and providing me with opportunities to serve. I am blessed to know the people I've met and am open to meeting new people this year.